.: g0odbyes really are f0rever;

Y Monday, November 28, 2005Y

6:56 PM

24-n0v- went tuh cut hair le at tw0 way... haha... at first , hair l0ok nice ... n0w... erm... uglii... grr... den went tuh bugis and b0ught my concert stuffZ.... ya... den n0 $$ le... thx mun fer givin me the 2 great d0llars... haha... den meet m0m fer dinner... ya... finallii watched finish my tian gu0 de jia yi le... s0 l0ng... ming da0 ar... hair l0oks real betta ! haha... m0m is crazii lia0... muz lend t0 munzii fast or my m0m will g0 mad... haha...and tat guy ! stop speakin eng !! grr...
25-n0v- went fer cip t0dae... i finished my h0urs le leh... haha... but nvm** den went tuh gib 0ut flyers with mun c0z others n0t here yet... sianz... haha... den k0h n b0on sian came... b0on sian was s0 high t0dae... haha... can't rmb wat happen le... den we ate n ate... s0 fun ! den mun went over my place ya... den let her c tian gu0 de jia yi and we watched over n over again !... haha.... sianz... den play this play dat lahs... ya...
26-n0v- went tuh eat lunch with my family... l0ve tt ... den went tuh parents meetin with m0m fer the ch0ir plans fer next yr... shalL n0t sae s0 much bout tt... den rush h0me den d0ll up le went tuh meet l0vers and went tuh VCH again... haahaha... ya... their perf0rmance n0rt bad lahs... but i was t0o hungry 4 anithing... hee... den went tuh makan afta band concert den went tuh take l0tsa of funnii** photos... haha... s0 fun ~! l0ve my l0vers...
27-n0v- went out with hui min... miss her l0ts... and we were like t0kin and tokin n0n stop l0rs... haha... wann t0 hab a gathering... ya... muz find time le... we were like spendin all te time t0kin....haha
28-n0v- rain is s0ooooo hands0me !!!!!! ah.... haha... m0m's eye dunn0 wat happen went tuh see d0c with her... den b0ught vcd ya... rain's sh0w... realii l0ve him l0ts... haha... den spent my dae at h0me watchin vcd... peskii.... ya ! rain r0x !! hee... tmr gg 0ut... yea...

`` the m0ment u fell in l0ve with her , i n0e tt we n0t gonna g0 back like b4 !~

Y Tuesday, November 22, 2005Y

4:20 PM

n0v 20- choir concert is tmr !!! omg ! nerv0us** ha... ya wake up in da mornin den meet shikin fer breakfast cum lunch... haha... den eatin halfway , wee kiat and mark came and dey can't find anii available table and s0 ... we r kind enuff and shared table wif dem... h0w kind ** den we were luffin away while eatin and bec0z of a kangar0o song... oh my... den went fer ch0ir... after rehersin , we went t0 vch ... w0oh... den we had our joint rehersal... we sang kinda better ** ya... den we heard the other ch0irs sing... edgefield pri students are s0 cute and their v0ices were like..... s0o sweet... haha....den sum unhappy things happen... n0w are all resolve... phew... den went t0 ah ma hse... haha... saw melanie... she is as cute ... haha... l0ve her tuh bits... den went h0me kinda late... tmr is the big day !

n0v 21- t0dae is 0ur choir joint concert !!! verii excited ** ya.. den went tuh ah ma hse earlii in da m0rnin t0 ask kaka t0 help me make my hair... ya... den went tuh eat breakfast with n0ella den went fer ch0ir and found out tt we can actualii tie scorpion... grr.... den ask man jing aka ch0u jing t0 help me tie hair... haha... n she is like luffin n0n-stop ... hee... den went tuh vch ... excited and we were havin our dry-runs again... haha... and we given a usher Nicholas... at first he was kinda blur and we all were like .... grr... haha... ya after dry-run , the concert started !!! we went in fer our first song , kein tahan... w0ohh.... s0 manii ppl... i was shakin ..... after gg out of the stage , i was still nervous like hell... time flies .... finally was our last song !... s0 fast ... 0h my... and i hab l0ts of fun durin the dry run n concert... haha... and l0ts 0f luffin ... keke... t0o excitin le... den after concert , we were like s0 high ... while takin f0tos and sayin our sch cheer... hee... den met all my peeps outside and we went tuh t0ok photos and makan... haha... we were s0 high !!! i will nv f0rget this dae and this '' person '' .... t0o bad nv even get the chance t0 sae bye**... 21.11.05 r0x... i l0ve choir l0ts... haha...

n0v 22- went back t0 poly... mr tan invited us back ... haha... meet carmen and mei wei b4 gg t0 class... they b0ught swiss r0ll fer the class... h0w nice**... den t0dae will be our verii last dae in 1A01... joanna and melody were n0t here... s0b... nv get t0 sae g0odbye fer the last time... but we will keep in touch ya... den durin CRM , frm the min mr tan tok , i juz can't stop luffin... haha... he is juz t0o funnii... hahahaha... [details missing] .... realii like his less0ns l0ts ... haha... they were all like crackin j0kes away... 0h my... haha... it was a memorable less0n indeed... i will miss mr tan's funnii face and 1A01... HAHA... mem0ries in np attachment will stay with me foreva... np r0x... haha...

`` ii will nv f0rget ur smile and ur eyes tt l0oked at me ...

Y Saturday, November 19, 2005Y

12:20 AM

n0v 17-thrus- m0rnin dad sent me n lays t0 poly... den we are s0 early hahas 4 the 1st time... den went back fer onlii 1 hr bec0z of my ch0ir...yea... den went back with my casual wear n security guard stop me as usual... haa... den went fer ch0ir...
den we went tuh pps t0 perform t0dae... kids are all s0 ... erm hyper tt they dun listen t0 uS !!! s0 bad... grr.... hahax... den went back t0 ah ma hse t0 change ...
accompany shikin g0 cut hair at tw0 way ...ya n0t bad as juz tt the fringe t0o... short hahax... den meet fangies , irni , jac , noella t0 g0 miss chen's concert ... b4 dat we met wee kiat and gang t0 hab our dinner at cityhall... shikin was high ! hahax... we were like luffin t0o loudly at burger king... den went tuh raffles place n meet miss fong and all den we walked t0 the arts house...
den saw MR LOH ... hahax... our ex choir conductor... den tok to him and all... The Singers sang s0 well... i m way impressed by dem... WELL DONE... haha den took photos n all... den went t0 the singapore river... and we kept on singin... we were all s0 high n happii tat nite !!! c0ol... haha

n0v18-fri- went tuh poly in da mornin myself coz lays class start at 10... den th0t the shuttle bus is fer everyone and i was wrong !! muz be np students... den i ran back and took another bus and it was tirin... den went t0 meet joanna... wasn't t0o late... hahax... t0dae is my last dae in poly... haix... kinda sad... i will miss 1A01 l0ts after i left... i will miss POLY's life t0o ... and most importantly , i will miss [[ joanna , jia beng , melody , mei wei , carmen ]] l0ts hahaas... and the hai die guy n all... hee ... den went t0 jeffrey yang practical... it was fun ... den went fer econs and saw lays n all... n t0ok ph0tos... ya... last dae mahs... muz take f0tos... den heard tt we gt invited back to poly on wed fer mr tan's lesson ! haha it will be great ! like his less0n l0ts ! hahax... gt s0 attached with this class lia0... dun wann g0 back sch... ya... lectures n tut0rial ended at 5... and i reallii dun bear tuh leave 1A01 ... Ngee ann r0x ! i will cum back in 2 yrs time... hee... den t0ok f0tos with my wonderful peeps i n0e in np... i will miss dem l0ts !!!
den went tuh bugis with lays and meet ling , mun and koh wei... nv seen dem fer a week... miss dem l0ts... ya... den had l0ts of luffin n stuffs... haha... excitin... den went h0me and caught in da rain... and caught a c0ld... haix...

n0v 19-sat- t0dae is a pathetic dae... caught a c0ld n went t0 see a d0c... havin bad sore throat and all and s0 can't g0 out s0 stayed at h0me n were b0red like hell den watch tian guo de jia yi l0r... haha...

`` i m drowned in pain... i like euu but u pretend n0rt t0 n0e...

Y Tuesday, November 15, 2005Y

9:09 PM

`` i m sad... i mean verii sad... i muz n0t cry... i can't cry... i realii wanna ign0re wateva shit u write , say n wateva... but i can't... realii... but why...? did i d0 anithing wr0ng n0W?? i mean i th0t if i m nice tuh u , u will be nice t0 me... i think i was wr0ng... i m hurt ... verii hurt... why things turn out this wae? i can nv g0 back t0 the past le... like mun sae , i shld n0t think ab0ut it but i can't c0z i care... i simply care l0ts... tt's why i m feeliin damn d0wn n0w... is tt h0w u wann treat me ? I thot i can juz g0 on with my life but u are pushin me to my limits... i dun wan t0 g0 back t0 the past wen ii again become a walkin corpse d0in all sorts of silly things... u make me wanna use another way t0 let the pain g0 t0 somewhere else... IF u wann me t0 die or s0 , juz sae " g0 n die " in front of me !

8:25 PM

13-11-05`- spent hundred dollars plus but this m0ney cumz frm my angba0 fer my bdae and N0T frm my m0m ...!!! i F0UND A J0B !!!! FINALLY I CAN WORK ... HAHAX... it will tiring as i m w0rkin 0utside...it is n0t a simple j0b like doing simple stuff ... went out with 2 dotss... s0 fun but painful... my leg esp. den t0ok ne0s n all ... hahax... found my skirt finalli
14-11-05- went t0 ngee ann poly le ! s0 happii th0u smth bad happen in the m0rnin... den my buddy l0ok real like pik mun... g0d... she was s0 friendly n nice... hahax... lecture was quite... erm... ya.. den went tuh seoul garden at nite, haha... was luffin s0 much with jac,noella n big mama... it was quite fun n Full... ya...
15-11-05-went tuh poly in da mornin... econs lecture was kinda high bec0z lays was here.... hahax... den lecture n stuffs were as usual... f0od was s0 cheap... den went t0 orhard with 2 dotss... ya... as fun ...

`` i m s0 hurt... i th0t tt if i be nice tuh u , u will be nice to me .... n0 i was WRONG !

Y Saturday, November 12, 2005Y

11:17 PM

12-n0v-sat- t0dae w0ke up at 10 plus ... woke up by my m0mmiii.... den meet mun , lays n ling at 1 and i was late ! den went tuh heeren and i b0ught 1 ring , 1 shirt and 1 jacket... w0oh... den michelle n ti0ng came n t0ok ne0s as usual... hab l0tsa fun wif them c0z we r all mad ... den b0ught a bag...like it l0ts... den went tuh bugis with lays n mun at nite... b0ught another ring !!! i was mad... den b0ught my slip in and another shirt.... t0tal i spent : $136 ! wah... first time in hist0ry ! and tmr i still gg out... where t0 find the $ ! i muz w0rk lia0... haix... i m verii br0ke ! ~ S0BZ... m0m bought me a mickey watch ... haha thanks s0 much ! congratz lays 4 rebondin ur hair ! hahax....

`` dun h0pe s0 much tt he will feel e same ... cuz if he d0n't , i'll be dr0wned iin pAin !
`` i m dr0wned in pain n0w cuz he dun feel e same ~

Y Friday, November 11, 2005Y

9:16 PM

11-n0v-frii- wat tuh sae ne? t0dae m0rning after eatin m0ii medicine , i was verii drowsy s0 went 0ff tuh rest until 7.45 am den went tuh sch. s0 i was late hence didn't g0 fer amaths less0ns... o0ps but s0rrii... hahax... den duriin break, i ate the spicy mee ... omG !!! afta eatin tt , my gastric came by t0 sae hii and i started vomittin... eek... hard time sia... Vomit n v0mit... g0sh is gr0ss... ya... den was feelin verii sick but still went tuh choir . b4 dat went tuh see miss tAn fer the briefin fer next week poly's attchment... ya m0st importantly is n0 flirtin ! hahax... even with gurlS... but onlii gurls interest me hahax... as0 cann0t lia0s.... hahas... den went tuh ch0ir... i was feelin terrible but i dun dare t0 rest s0 i continue singin and m0vin like a mad gurl ... i was gg mad ! it was freeziin c0ld ! g0d ! next m0n , miss chen n miss fong treatin commitee fer dinner at seoul garden ! hahax... ! c0oL but we gotta pay HALF ! hahax... ya den went tuh ah ma ... ya den listen t0 jay's albUm ! it was Damn nice ! ~ esp [[ hei se mao yi ]] ...
[[ye qu ]] made me think 0f s0rry i l0ve euu ... w0oh... ya...

`` dere is n0 way i can turn back anim0re... i can onlii walk on myself. ii n0e i can't make u stay and i n0e there will onlii be loneliness but s0rry , ii l0ve euu ...

Y Thursday, November 10, 2005Y

8:27 PM

10.n0v-thurs- ytd hab a great time vomittin...eek... verii sick... vomitted wateva i ate... s0 hungry... t0dae earlii mornin g0 see d0c... d0c sae is my gastriC? icic... hahas... gt l0ts 0f medicine and it c0st a b0mb ! s0rry m0m... hahax... ya next week gg t0 the poly-attachment... sianz ... i m al0ne fer my course. muz take a g0od l0ok at my dream sch... hahax... ya... tmr gt sch lehs... untill 12.30pm... den gt choir ... ya... lalala... sing again... ch0ir can d0 it on 22 n0v !~ aja aja ! haha...

[[ one dae, u will love me as i loved u , one dae , u will think of me as i thot of euu , one dae , u will cry fer me as i cried fer euu , one dae u will wan me BUT i dun wan euu ... ]]

Y Wednesday, November 09, 2005Y

6:35 PM

8-n0v-tues- t0dae m0rnin was a bad dae but it was fine after tt... phew... den less0ns were b0rin and was feelin unwell... ya... den went tuh eat ... den went fer ch0ir... it was freeziin c0ld inside... couldn't stand iit s0 miss fong called a cab and i went h0me... the cab fare was kinda ex... $9++ ... hartbr0ken ... was havin fever n didn't feel like gg t0 the d0c... lazii t0 walk... den t00k panad0l n waited fer m0m... ya...
9-n0v-wed... was feelin unwell s0 did not g0 tuh sch... fever went d0wn n was waitin fer m0m t0 cum back t0 bring me t0 e d0c... but mu fever g0ne d0wn le leh... peskii... Hahax... life is b0rin at h0me n it's rainin..... .....

dreamin of euu wun help me t0 d0, all tt u dreamed i could...

Y Monday, November 07, 2005Y

10:01 PM

7-n0v-mon-0-levels startiin le... oMg... hahax... sec4s stressed up lia0s... hahax... okies... den t0dae class was kinda b0-ring ... dunn0 why physics juz dun get int0 my head th0u love at harvord made me wanna studii hahax... gd sh0w... kekes... den just like heaven wasn't in the movie slot t0dae... sianz... den went tuh macs with l0vers and saw sum extension guys. feel like smackin their head... eek... hahax... den went off wind0w-shoppin at jp ?! den went h0me... ya... tmr gt choir n sch... is sianz da0...

`` hatred can't drive away hatred ... 0nlii l0ve can ...

Y Sunday, November 06, 2005Y

10:42 PM

6n0v-sun-went tuh orhard n bugis t0dae with l0vers , wood, des, ivan. at first , we were like strangers dunno why... hahax... feelin abit weird and they r like bodyguards hahas... but there were still luffings here n dere. den saw qiao weii... she l0oked pretty outside... w0oh... bought my specs n ring t0dae. kinda happi and sad c0z i saw nicer rings at bugis. gonna buy next week. ya, den went tuh bugis. hahax... we went tuh v8 movie cafe n makan... the guys r like asking fer abalone??? oh my g0d !! they were like luffin like dunn0 wat... hahax... peskii... den t0ok mrt and we were like talkin lame jokes n luffin like mad ppl . den we said ghost story and i was freaked out... peskii... it was scary walkin home bec0z of one peskii person wh0 kept scarin me ! call him den kana scared... peskii...haahx... ya... tmr gt sch ! b0-ring... watchin m0vie tmr t0o ...

i m 0n da verge 0f breakin d0wn wenever u gave me false h0pe. stop tt !

10:42 PM

6n0v-sun-went tuh orhard n bugis t0dae with l0vers , wood, des, ivan. at first , we were like strangers dunno why... hahax... feelin abit weird and they r like bodyguards hahas... but there were still luffings here n dere. den saw qiao weii... she l0oked pretty outside... w0oh... bought my specs n ring t0dae. kinda happi and sad c0z i saw nicer rings at bugis. gonna buy next week. ya, den went tuh bugis. hahax... we went tuh v8 movie cafe n makan... the guys r like asking fer abalone??? oh my g0d !! they were like luffin like dunn0 wat... hahax... peskii... den t0ok mrt and we were like talkin lame jokes n luffin like mad ppl . den we said ghost story and i was freaked out... peskii... it was scary walkin home bec0z of one peskii person wh0 kept scarin me ! haahx... ya... tmr gt sch ! b0-ring... watchin m0vie tmr t0o ...

i m 0n da verge 0f breakin d0wn wenever u gave me false h0pe. stop tt !

Y Saturday, November 05, 2005Y

10:10 PM

4-n0v-fri- todae woke up early in the morning bec0z I m making my ic ! Finalli... den meet woody n chang at je station ... wood came and he realised tt he forgot t0 bring his letter and we decided t0 g0 t0 his hse and take and we met chang at d0ver... den t0ok bus t0 orhard since he lived s0 near tuh orhard. h0w peskii... den we were like jokin n luffing all the way . we went tuh lucky plaza and took ic photos. and one uncle think we stupid wanna charge us 10 dollars ! tt's nonsense fer onli 4 fotos... den we juz walked out despite the fact tt me n chang hab alreadii taken .. den went tuh the other shop and take. nth was nice s0 anih0w choose l0rs. me n chang are the easy-gg one. unlike wood... haha... haha...
went tuh eat and chang was like eating s0 slowly and dunn0 wat r we luffin at ?!
went tuh make our ic ... den chang n wood were like keep takin fotos... peskii and my hp n0 batt bec0z of dem. usin my hp and takin ph0tos... den we met a verii gd lady wh0 tok t0 us like frenz and let us make our ic tgt... g0od rite... hahax... den went out of the building , i was pinched by chang . it was damn painful !!!!
went tuh church and had our confession... ya... the guy [forgot his name] was still tokin bout my necklace since ytd ... but he was a great person thou. den had our confession ya... den went home. tmr is my confirmation dae ! Yea !

5 nov-sat-went tuh choir at 8 am !!! wen choir onlii starts at 9 ! all big mama's fault ... hahaa... luckii gt gladys... den after choir , went t0 eat with big mama. it was fun ... hahax... den went home and got readii fer my confirmation. i even permed my hair... haha... weird... den we gone thru our confirmation tt nite . i was s0 nervous wen bishop made the sign of cross on my forehead. den s0 happii i m finallii confirmed... yea... den t0ok l0tsa photos. it was sad t0 leave all my frenz as a class. but we'll still get t0 c each other in church ! den went t0 jp with my lovers n mom. my mom treated dem dinner and had a great time luffin includin my mom. thanks lovers n all tt came...

may god bless everyone in my life. bless my grandparents esp and my beloved parents , family and frenz. please guide me thru my darkest moments and dun let me stray away frm you. thank euu g0d for choosin me as ur daughter. May g0d bless...

Y Thursday, November 03, 2005Y

11:14 PM

3-n0v-w0ke up earlii in the mornin like freak. ytd slept at 1 plus... tired ... den went tuh church. supposed tuh g0 out de... but cancelled bec0z of my church thingy. s0 sorry... den bible studii n played game... i was like g0d , i m wearin skirt ! hahax... restricted movements... haha...den t0dae i was kinda mad or i mean verii mad ! keep on playin n blabblin nonsense... hahax... but it was fun luffin n jokin like this... th0u , abit upset later 0n but i m fine n0w... hahax... fast yea... tmr makin ic le... s0 happii... hahax... finalli !

i m on da verge of breakin d0wn... i dun wanna cry bec0z of euu... u r not worth it ... the one tt worth i believe will nv make me cry ...

Y Wednesday, November 02, 2005Y

10:08 PM

1-11-05- t0dae is deepavali... hahax... peskii sia... den went 0ut with m0m t0 bugis n far east... den met yee mun n her sis... hahax... den bought 2 shirts $45 ?! s0 shocked tt my m0m would buy it fer me ... den saw the white dress fer my confirmation! it was 50 plus dollars ! omg ! haha... m0m spent al0t t0dae plus my sh0es lehs... s0 as a filial daughter , i treated moii m0m dinner ! hahax... n0t s0 ex de lahs ... ya... den went h0me n watch l0ve story at harvord... hahax... ya... the storyline tells me tt studyiin is scary !!
2-11-05- classes was normal ... joey n sherna are realli verii nice gurls... hahax... ya den went tuh t0 my ah ma hse with my l0vers ! c0ol... played with melanie and alL... and caused cha0s there , luffin like idiots... i'm sorry bout my attitude but i cherished the times we r tgt... l0ve you guys ... hahas... and i l0oked gd with tt t0opid hair i n0e... hahax... s0 much t0 luff with dem...
tmr gt church camp... can't g0 out... sorry ... sun kkz ! i promise ... haha...

i nv regretted the times i spent with euu ... is over?