.: g0odbyes really are f0rever;

Y Tuesday, February 28, 2006Y

7:13 AM

28.02.06- t0dae wasn't feelin verii well ... cough was kinda bad ... den went fer r0ad run . ii hypervented ... can't rmb wat reallii happen ... den was br0ught back tuh sch . i rmb clearly tt particular indian teacher !!! she was damn rough ! i was havin serious cramps and she was there f0rcin me t0 open my hands ... it hurt like hell ! den she squeezed my face n f0rced me tuh drink water . i wonder wat is the bl0ody pr0b with her . scary 0 ~ th0t she is g0nna kill me l0rs... den they br0ught me tuh sick bay... my hair was in a big mess ... l0ls... den mun n lays were there ... w0od came as well fer a while . den dad came with melanie t0 fetch me ... went tuh ah ma hse . slept fer verii l0ng . missed ah ma al0t . finally saw her . she kept 0n askin me wat i wan t0 eat n grandpa went tuh buy . i m verii t0uched ... *tears* l0ls... den t0ok cab n find lays n w0od ... they sent me h0me ... thank euu ... den they went tuh eat at the kopitiam near my hse . den after eatin , they sent me h0me . =] *details missing* thx fer the pig card... l0ls... itz best card ever...

``[[ iif ii dun l0ve euu , i w0uldn't let myself falL sh0 deEp ... i can't leave n0w]]

Y Monday, February 27, 2006Y

5:21 AM

27.02.06- t0dae is a l0ng dae ... l0ls ...chem c0mmon test is s0 diff !!! waste my time studyin til 1 am !!! Argh ~ peskii test ! c0nfirm fail lia0s ~ haix ... den mt less0n sux !!! talk as0 cann0t . u think lettin us watch the stupid old vide0 , we can get a1 ! shit l0r !!! still dare t0 scold me ! n0 one dare t0 scold me tt l0r ~ bl00dy ~ next time juz send us 0ut lahs !!!! hmmph ! den gt serious m0odswing after recess... bad 0ne ... was cure by my peskii cl0wn ~ thank euu ... thanks t0 l0vers n chien tt care as well ... i m high again ~ hahax... physics less0n was as usual b0rin !! s0mem0re chien left earlii ... hmmm ... tmr still gt physics test~ is sianz da0 . den after sch , went tuh jp with lays , mun n w0od t0 makan ~ eat papaya again ~ addicted lia0s ... hahax.... n0nsense ~ den went h0me with w0ods ... we b0th were crappin after the quiet mrt j0urney... tt's peskii huhs ... den after l0ts of crappin , went tuh yew tee t0 give m0m my ezlink den send hm again ... this time it rain heavily !!! heavily !! den ran 0ut ... realised tt the umbrella was spoilt !!! drenched like s0me kind ... omg ... den ran back t0 change an umbrella ... l0ls... den ran 0ut t0 find him ... den reached the childcare , th0t he was there bud couldn't find him ... like a child liddat... den f0und him at last ... *details missing* find m0mmy after tt ... den 0n the way h0me , i fell d0wn ... is reallii unluckii da0 ... ps s0mem0re... n0w d0wn with headache ... l0ls... c0ol dae huhs ...

[[`` ii will n0rt let g0 till the dae u let g0 of me ... ]]

Y Sunday, February 26, 2006Y

3:58 AM

24.02.06- hmm ... went tuh polyclinic with w0ods t0 accompanii him see d0c... spent my m0rning there ... the d0c was sl0w... l0ls.. *details missing* den met shimin ... den after seein a d0c , i went tuh make my ezlink card... h0pe it dun g0 -missing- again ... den went tuh mun's hse n find her ... while w0ods g0 cut hair ... den mun had a haircut ... l0ls... den waited fer her t0 d0ll up n stuffz and went tuh meet l0vers .... we were s0 high ... crappin n luffin like mad... l0ls... tt's 0ur l0vers' style ... l0ls... den went tuh orhard... den meet w0ods again ... after walkin far east , realise there wasn't anithing , b0ught t-shirts n meet chien and headed tuh bugis . den met chang , mus n kim lee ... den we went tuh bugis point n b0ught dest , ivan n candy's pressie . *details missing * den went tuh parc0 n t0ok ne0s ... l0ls... ya ...thx fer the cute ashley ... l0ls... den headed 0ff tuh pasir ris ... den i gt gastric ... it hurts like hell ... den managed t0 walk there ... thx t0 w0od n dester ... den ate n0odles...omg ... hate t0 eat n0odles in tt uglii way... argh ... den after tt , became verii high ... mus , kim lee came ... * details missing* den they bbq and i was the laziest . sittin in the r0om waitin fer f0od ... l0ls...lays t0ok my first kiss away !!! argh ! thanks t0 the h0td0g game ... l0ls... lays , u r the luckii 0ne kkz ... haha *details missing * den lays n k0h went hm ... den the guys went tuh play game , me , mun n chien went 0ut t0 take a walk ... we sat at the stage tt talkin ... tt's weird ... l0ls... den went back and felL asleep .... chien n candy were luffin hard at jacks0n's lame j0kes... l0ls... den the guys came back ... they started playing blind mice ... me , mun n w0od sat outside watchin ... l0ls... they were s0 high l0rs... haha den we sat there luffin at dem ... l0ls...den they play catchin ... cute l0r...like children ... i was caught at the very beginnin... peskii ... den catchin was b0red and every0ne came back ... den me , mus , kim lee , ivan , chien n candy went 0ut tuh the macs ... l0ls... candy was s0 peskii dat she went 0ut t0 the glass n scared me by standin dere... l0ls... she was luffin hard again ... den they went back ...
this was the first walk ... l0ngest walk ... l0ls... we were b0th verii peskii ... l0ls... crappin n playin like kids ... l0ls...*details missing* was biten ten times by the peskii mosquit0 ! eek !! l0ls...tt's wat i call "happiness"... h0pe tt dae nv ends... bud it ended ... den went tuh tuh chalet n slept !... Zzz....
25.02.06- after slpin , me , kim lee , wood , mun n chien went tuh eat ... after eatin , kim lee went t0 find the guys . den we went back tuh chalet ... we sat there n play... hahax... *details missing* ... den went tuh hab a walk outside... wanted tuh eat fruits bud cann0t find ... l0ls... den went back tuh chalet and we crap al0t ... l0ls... chien esp euu ! l0ls... hahax... den went tuh eat kfc n lays n k0h came ! l0ls... den we went back tuh chalet again . xin ya , fangies they alL came as well . den played the f0rtune tellin game with l0vers , w0ods n chien ... hahax... k0h was mad b0ut it ... l0ls... s0 peskii ~ den went hm ... nearly kn0cked d0wn by cars... tt's danger0us !! l0ls ... *details missing* the dae ended ... i will nv f0rget these 2 days ...
26.02.06- t0dae was a b0rin dae... slack n slack at h0me ...

[[`` ii m living in the happiness ... pls dun ever take it away... i m falling deeper n deeper ... ]] ``[[ with0ut euu , the r0ad will nv be filled with happiness... ]]

3:58 AM

24.02.06- hmm ... went tuh polyclinic with w0ods t0 accompanii him see d0c... spent my m0rning there ... the d0c was sl0w... l0ls.. *details missing* den met shimin ... den after seein a d0c , i went tuh make my ezlink card... h0pe it dun g0 -missing- again ... den went tuh mun's hse n find her ... while w0ods g0 cut hair ... den mun had a haircut ... l0ls... den waited fer her t0 d0ll up n stuffz and went tuh meet l0vers .... we were s0 high ... crappin n luffin like mad... l0ls... tt's 0ur l0vers' style ... l0ls... den went tuh orhard... den meet w0ods again ... after walkin far east , realise there wasn't anithing , b0ught t-shirts n meet chien and headed tuh bugis . den met chang , mus n kim lee ... den we went tuh bugis point n b0ught dest , ivan n candy's pressie . *details missing * den went tuh parc0 n t0ok ne0s ... l0ls... ya ...thx fer the cute ashley ... l0ls... den headed 0ff tuh pasir ris ... den i gt gastric ... it hurts like hell ... den managed t0 walk there ... thx t0 w0od n dester ... den ate n0odles...omg ... hate t0 eat n0odles in tt uglii way... argh ... den after tt , became verii high ... mus , kim lee came ... * details missing* den they bbq and i was the laziest . sittin in the r0om waitin fer f0od ... l0ls... *details missing * den lays n k0h went hm ... den the guys went tuh play game , me , mun n chien went 0ut t0 take a walk ... we sat at the stage tt talkin ... tt's weird ... l0ls... den went back and felL asleep .... chien n candy were luffin hard at jacks0n's lame j0kes... l0ls... den the guys came back ... they started playing blind mice ... me , mun n w0od sat outside watchin ... l0ls... they were s0 high l0rs... haha den we sat there luffin at dem ... l0ls...den they play catchin ... cute l0r...like children ... i was caught at the very beginnin... peskii ... den catchin was b0red and every0ne came back ... den me , mus , kim lee , ivan , chien n candy went 0ut tuh the macs ... l0ls... candy was s0 peskii dat she went 0ut t0 the glass n scared me by standin dere... l0ls... she was luffin hard again ... den they went back ...
this was the first walk ... l0ngest walk ... l0ls... we were b0th verii peskii ... l0ls... crappin n playin like kids ... l0ls...*details missing* was biten ten times by the peskii mosquit0 ! eek !! l0ls...tt's wat i call "happiness"... h0pe tt dae nv ends... bud it ended ... den went tuh tuh chalet n slept !... Zzz....
25.02.06- after slpin , me , kim lee , wood , mun n chien went tuh eat ... after eatin , kim lee went t0 find the guys . den we went back tuh chalet ... we sat there n play... hahax... *details missing* ... den went tuh hab a walk outside... wanted tuh eat fruits bud cann0t find ... l0ls... den went back tuh chalet and we crap al0t ... l0ls... chien esp euu ! l0ls... hahax... den went tuh eat kfc n lays n k0h came ! l0ls... den we went back tuh chalet again . xin ya , fangies they alL came as well . den played the f0rtune tellin game with l0vers , w0ods n chien ... hahax... k0h was mad b0ut it ... l0ls... s0 peskii ~ den went hm ... nearly kn0cked d0wn by cars... tt's danger0us !! l0ls ... *details missing* the dae ended ... i will nv f0rget these 2 days ...
26.02.06- t0dae was a b0rin dae... slack n slack at h0me ...

[[`` ii m living in the happiness ... pls dun ever take it away... i m falling deeper n deeper ... ]] ``[[ with0ut euu , the r0ad will nv be filled with happiness... ]]

3:58 AM

24.02.06- hmm ... went tuh polyclinic with w0ods t0 accompanii him see d0c... spent my m0rning there ... the d0c was sl0w... l0ls.. *details missing* den met shimin ... den after seein a d0c , i went tuh make my ezlink card... h0pe it dun g0 -missing- again ... den went tuh mun's hse n find her ... while w0ods g0 cut hair ... den mun had a haircut ... l0ls... den waited fer her t0 d0ll up n stuffz and went tuh meet l0vers .... we were s0 high ... crappin n luffin like mad... l0ls... tt's 0ur l0vers' style ... l0ls... den went tuh orhard... den meet w0ods again ... after walkin far east , realise there wasn't anithing , b0ught t-shirts n meet chien and headed tuh bugis . den met chang , mus n kim lee ... den we went tuh bugis point n b0ught dest , ivan n candy's pressie . *details missing * den went tuh parc0 n t0ok ne0s ... l0ls... ya ...thx fer the cute ashley ... l0ls... den headed 0ff tuh pasir ris ... den i gt gastric ... it hurts like hell ... den managed t0 walk there ... thx t0 w0od n dester ... den ate n0odles...omg ... hate t0 eat n0odles in tt uglii way... argh ... den after tt , became verii high ... mus , kim lee came ... * details missing* den they bbq and i was the laziest . sittin in the r0om waitin fer f0od ... l0ls... *details missing * den lays n k0h went hm ... den the guys went tuh play game , me , mun n chien went 0ut t0 take a walk ... we sat at the stage tt talkin ... tt's weird ... l0ls... den went back and felL asleep .... chien n candy were luffin hard at jacks0n's lame j0kes... l0ls... den the guys came back ... they started playing blind mice ... me , mun n w0od sat outside watchin ... l0ls... they were s0 high l0rs... haha den we sat there luffin at dem ... l0ls...den they play catchin ... cute l0r...like children ... i was caught at the very beginnin... peskii ... den catchin was b0red and every0ne came back ... den me , mus , kim lee , ivan , chien n candy went 0ut tuh the macs ... l0ls... candy was s0 peskii dat she went 0ut t0 the glass n scared me by standin dere... l0ls... she was luffin hard again ... den they went back ...
this was the first walk ... l0ngest walk ... l0ls... we were b0th verii peskii ... l0ls... crappin n playin like kids ... l0ls...*details missing* was biten ten times by the peskii mosquit0 ! eek !! l0ls...tt's wat i call "happiness"... h0pe tt dae nv ends... bud it ended ... den went tuh tuh chalet n slept !... Zzz....
25.02.06- after slpin , me , kim lee , wood , mun n chien went tuh eat ... after eatin , kim lee went t0 find the guys . den we went back tuh chalet ... we sat there n play... hahax... *details missing* ... den went tuh hab a walk outside... wanted tuh eat fruits bud cann0t find ... l0ls... den went back tuh chalet and we crap al0t ... l0ls... chien esp euu ! l0ls... hahax... den went tuh eat kfc n lays n k0h came ! l0ls... den we went back tuh chalet again . xin ya , fangies they alL came as well . den played the f0rtune tellin game with l0vers , w0ods n chien ... hahax... k0h was mad b0ut it ... l0ls... s0 peskii ~ den went hm ... nearly kn0cked d0wn by cars... tt's danger0us !! l0ls ... *details missing* the dae ended ... i will nv f0rget these 2 days ...
26.02.06- t0dae was a b0rin dae... slack n slack at h0me ...

[[`` ii m living in the happiness ... pls dun ever take it away... i m falling deeper n deeper ... ]] ``[[ with0ut euu , the r0ad will nv be filled with happiness... ]]

Y Thursday, February 23, 2006Y

4:48 AM

23.02.06- t0dae less0ns were b0rin as usual ... why are less0ns oways s0 b0ring ... m0rnin , we had 0ur lit test . wat a weird test . we can discuss ... l0ls... den hurt my hand ... 0uchies** uglii hand n0w... l0ls . den chinese test ? peskii test . i think my standard 0f my chinese sux n0w ... haix ... den it was bleedin... bleedin! ani0ne wan t0 d0nate bl0od tuh me ? ... den physics less0n , chien was like mAd ~ behavin like a 3 yr old kid ... l0ls... acc0rdin to the law , she is mad n lame ... security is cumin ~ l0ls ... den chemistry was b0rin as well . juz like sleepin in class... Zzz... den gt back my ss test . nid 1/2 m0re mark t0 pass... bud nv studii still can fail by 1/2 mark .i've impr0ved .... *l0ls... den after sch , waited fer mun n lays . went tuh eat mac with l0vers n w0ods... den were crappin alL the way at macs... den went hm ... *details missing* my m0m is mad !~ l0ls ...

``[[ i m glad euu care ... itz the care tt will keep all pr0bs away ... thanks ..]]

Y Wednesday, February 22, 2006Y

6:30 AM

22.02.06- t0dae ... c0nfusin dae ... dunn0 shld be high 0r d0wn ... less0ns were as usual . i failed my a-maths test ... hate it ~ den eat al0t t0dae !! muz cut d0wn lE ... 0r n0rt my eff0rt fer last week is g0ne d0wn the drain... den after sch , went tuh ch0ir ... sing sing sing ... den t0dae was released late ... den went t0 find the rest ... *details missing* den went hm ... h0h wei jian was at yew tee eating !!! l0ls ...

`` it will be hard if i hab t0 c0ntinue n0rt being myself . i think i left with onlii tt way ... tt way ! mun , u may be the 0nlii 0ne all0win it ... l0ls.. h0pe i dun hab t0 res0rt usin tt ~ s0 stupid l0ls ... bud we came up with a better 0ne isn't it ... l0ls...
`` if onlii u believe ... we can g0 on verii far ... ii believe...

[[ `` the pr0b lies ... bud itz time we hab t0 m0ve on as well ... ]]

Y Tuesday, February 21, 2006Y

6:33 AM

21.02.06- t0dae is a tirin dae... l0ls... mun nv cum t0dae ! she is sick ! miss her lia0s... take care gurl.... den less0ns were b0rin t0o ... a-maths test was difficult fer me .... den al0t of crappings durin free peri0d.. l0ls ... den slept thru 0ut phy less0n... is reallii t0o b0rin ... den after sch was feelin unwell . head giddy and slept thru miss sim's scoldin session ... luckii ... d3n after practical , went tuh jp tuh eat with lays n w0ods... l0ls... we were all mad... den after eatin .. went hm... head kana hit ... =x dumb lia0s ... oh my ... *details missing * ... l0ls...

``[[ itz wen we walk d0wn the r0ad , tgt as 0ne . i n0e the trust is dere ... ]]

Y Monday, February 20, 2006Y

7:02 AM

20.02.06- t0dae ... sch is as n0rmal ... mt less0n still sux ... scold scold scold ! send us 0ut den ! l0ls.. mad lia0s ... hate her l0rs... b0rin less0n ! den pE... we did high jump .. ps l0rs ! ~ omg .... l0ls... den less0ns as usual ... i hate tt s0und !!! argh !! irritate my ears ! l0ls ... den was kinda high at first den began t0 m0odswing ... n0nsense rite ... yeahs ... m0od was kinda bad ... s0rry ... den after tt , t0ok cab hm and meet xian n w0od t0 bugis ... luffin s0 much at ppl in the mrt ... bad ... den went bugis ... b0ught 0ur stuffz... thx fer the n0tepad l0ls... den *details missing* den w0od went hm first .. me n xian went tuh eat ljs den went tuh walk around n t0ok ne0s n f0tos... we were s0 high ... l0ls... peskii~ den we were luffin s0 much in the mrt again ... bad l0rs... den ran hm ... c0z i gt tuition ... argh ... ran n ran like mad ... 0mg ... l0ls...

``[[ i h0pe ii m the 0ne listening tuh all tt's in ur mind ... ]]

Y Sunday, February 19, 2006Y

6:20 AM

19.02.06- i'm s0rry b0ut t0dae ... c0z i misunderstand smth ... s0rry .

t0dae went 0ut with mun n w0ods... meet mun first ... den i was like s0 crazzii luffin at her ... baddies rite ? i n0e ... haha... s0rry mun ... den meet w0ods ... yeah ... luff s0mem0re ... l0ls ... dEn went tuh plaza sing , den went tuh eat secret recipe . bud nv eat cake ... s0bs... den eat ice-cream n mushr0om soup ... thx mun fer treatin me the s0up ... l0ls ... den w0ods met his ex arhs... l0ls... hands0me l0rs ... l0ls ... den walked ar0und the sh0ps ... saw s0 manii pigs' stuffs... *tempted* l0ls... den went tuh watch pink panther ... it was a funnii m0vie .... mun was like mAD ! haha... i fell asleep ... d0ts ...l0ls ... den after watchin , went t0 orhard ... den we went cine t0 take ne0s... l0ls... playin with the pr0ps n stuffs ... fun ~ den went tuh parag0n ... l0ls... hit w0ods verii hard ... s0rry arhs ... wh0 ask u t0 be s0 peskii ... l0ls... jk jk ... den went tuh far east ... w0od n mun f0reva hungry de l0rs... den went tuh a thai restaurant ... l0ls... onlii ate al0e vera ice ... den al0t of crappings n luffin there ... s0 high ~ n0nsense ... den walked ar0und den went hm ... s0 sleepy ... l0ls... juz kept 0n sleepin .... pig ! ...

``[[ bad things hab come t0 an end ... ii believe dat gd things will last 4eva...]]

Y Saturday, February 18, 2006Y

6:01 AM

18.02.06- things g0ne wr0ng fer me . i br0ught harm t0 0thers as welL . bud this time , i n0rt g0nna be weak anim0re . i g0na fight back and be the bad girl tt lies deep within ... if i dun d0 s0 , things n0rt g0nna end and my heart will be certified dead . i n0rt g0nna let all my happiness g0 d0wn tUh helL this time . i hab t0 d0 smth fer myself . i 've been living fer others . i m sick 0f it . this time , i g0nna turn everythin rite again . 1 week . we've g0ne 0ut of it . tt will be the strength fer me t0 fight on . so dun gib up on me at this lowest point of life ...

l0okin back tuh the past , i nv been s0 tired eversince 2005 passed . this time , i m wear 0ut . t0tallii . itz n0t supp0se tuh be this way . i nv ever felt my hartt bleedin this way . this was the first . i finalli broke d0wn after h0ldin on . i f0rced myself n0rt t0 use the silly way t0 let my pain g0 elsewhere . bud h0w l0ng can i h0ld ? bud i realised tt's n0rt the way anim0re . ii wilL live my life . stop messin up my life ! i can turn verii nasty . VERY .

i m tired . bud f0r the sake 0f xxx , peeps tt care , i hab t0 walk 0n myself n let my sufferings end . this time , i swear ii will d0 so .

i n0rt g0nna let ani0ne take 0ver my life n turn it upside d0wn . if u r jeal0us 0f my happiness n0w , g0 search fer urs . c0z u can nv take away the happiness tt bel0ngs t0 me . it bel0ngs t0 EUNICE TAN . get it clear !~

i hab enuff and i n0rt g0nna let euu d0wn this time as well . 0r n0rt b0th 0f us will end up n0where all bec0z of me . s0 i wanna ask u n0rt t0 let me g0 at this m0ment 0f time . xxx if u ask me again , i will n0rt keep anithing frm u anym0re...
- i juz nid 0ne w0rd frm u tuh assure me tt i m d0ing the right thing.

back to todae .
went tuh kb0x with norman n m0m . tryin t0 avoid s0me songs but in the end , i still hab to face it . tears started r0llin d0wn and i realised wat i wan fer my own . i realised that the decision still lies with me . it's time t0 do smth . ii m glad tt i sang th0se s0ngs thru and i made my mind . it wasn't a waste crying .
tt was a call to remind me .th0u it was juz a hell0. i dun wan things t0 be like this anim0re . i n0e which direction to g0 next . th0se tt care , stay with me n prepare fer e battle .

``[[ keep breathin . hold on tuh me n nv let me g0 coz i m n0rt leaving . ]]

Y Friday, February 17, 2006Y

8:09 AM

17.02.06- HAPPII BIRTHDAE JELLY 2 DESTER ... l0ls...
t0dae is a tiring dae fer me ... real tired... haiz . juz feel that i can't take it anim0re . lays , s0rry t0 let euu cry bec0z of me . i m fine . reallii ... i n0e u all care , but i still able t0 h0ld on . wen i break d0wn , i n0e u guys will be dere as well . s0 dun w0rry fer me . yeahs ... den less0ns were as usual i guessed . den after sch . was p0nderin if i shld or i shld n0rt . * details missing * .... at least t0dae i did luff frm the bott0m of my hartt ... haha ... rapist ...

why m ii carryin s0 much burden t0 myself ? i think is time i shld let it all g0 and keep my life carefree ...? i reallii think tt ppl can be s0 hypocrite at times . i am reallii sick n tired 0f that . why muz ii listen wen i alrd in the mess...? bud i ch0ose t0 c0z i care fer alL ... may g0d bless 0f dem t0 be happier and i will be happier t0o ... i juz dun wan ani0ne t0 be worry fer me . pls dun .

t0 f ! : sick n tired 0f ur n0nsense . since it is 0ver . st0p ur childish acts .

``[[ it n0rt supp0se t0 hurt this way . i nid euu . i nid euu . m0re n m0re each dae... ]] [[ i'm afraid 0f the day u will let me g0... ]]

Y Thursday, February 16, 2006Y

6:57 AM

- this is the pr0mise i made ... i will keep this pr0mise de ... =]

`` if i were t0 give it alL , i dun wan a heartbreak in return ... c0z we 0ften st0p by the obstacles in fr0nt 0f us . we f0rgot tt we still have each 0ther .. i hab learnt t0 trust .........

4:44 AM

16.02.06- HAPPII BIRSTHDAE T0 FIRST L0VER ! LAYS !!! HAppii BIRTHSDAE. MUACKIEs. t0dae layss is s0 happii ... she gt s00ooo manii pressie... all mickey mouse ... xin fu da0 ... argh ... *envious* l0ls ... den less0ns were as usual ... me n lays were high ~den recess , we sang a big l0ud bdae s0ng fer lays with shikin , ralv n 0o tin. hahax... tt's why i m t0o playful n insensitive t0 peeps' feelings ... fer this , i apologised . i reallii care fer all my frenz . is juz tt i m used t0 it . i m juz t0ooo insensitive . all my frenz l0ve me . i n0e . bud ... the last sentence is meant t0 be a j0ke ... s0rry ... l0ls ... den ss test sux ... haha... den eat 5 ferrer0 t0dae . fat lehs . den went hm with lays . [[ details missing ]] k0h , u r beside me ! yeah ! yeah ! yeah !

s0rry fer my insensitivity . if u n0e me well . u will understand . i m simply t0o playfuL . ii m n0rt always there . i might die anitime . dun rely t0o much on me . Muz stay str0ng w/o me .

``[[ i n0e there will s0meone beside me . tt's euu ... ]]

Y Wednesday, February 15, 2006Y

6:56 AM

15.02.06- t0dae was a Bad dae... it hab been verii bad since m0ndae ... when will my luck change ? t0dae less0n as usual ... juz tt we nv listen t0 the t0tal defence msg and we asked t0 stay back by laura lau and we hab tuh write reflection ... peskii ... den went fer ch0ir ... den went tuh meet mun n k0h and went tuh bugis ... i n0e i gt l0tz 0f popc0rn t0 eat ... juz being n0nsense here ... den went tuh eat pastamania and den sh0p fer lays's pressie ... w0oh... den things happen at edge ... bud realisin later i m n0rt angrii at alL ... n0t at the salegirl i mean ... bud i walked 0ff ... s0rry ... and i became t0o high ... i m mad ... verii mad... n make ppl w0rry... s0rry ... mun : u knew me t0o well... tt's scarii ... l0ls... den went hm ... i juz can't cry it 0ut ... n0 tEars ...

ii am n0rt born t0 please every0ne ... i hab my own m0ods n sadness but d0 u n0e ? s0 i shld be a cl0wn n entertain all hide all my em0tions ... ii shld n0rt be the 0ne carryin all these burdens tt is redundant ... i live my 0wn life ... st0p givin me stress ... i will BURST ... sae wateva u wan ...

tt's the way she l0ok at euu ... th0se eyes ... th0se smiles ... th0se th0ts ...

``[[ ii m h0ldin back my tears ... why is there always 0bstacles awaitin fer us?]]

Y Tuesday, February 14, 2006Y

8:38 AM

14.02.06- happii valentine's dae t0 all ... t0dae was n0rt feelin well s0 didn't g0 tuh sch ... den m0m brought me t0 see d0c ... haix... pr0-sicker ... den rest at hm ... den 4.30 gt readii and meet l0vers first ... den they went tuh buy their Last min stuffs . den gary came ... hAhax... he is s0 peskii ! ~ yeah den asked him t0 takE my stuffs c0z he nv buy anithing fer us n w0rst nv buy fer her ! baddieS... den meet chien and chang ... den w0od , ivan n dester came ... den we went tuh eat se0ul garden ... l0l ... s0 fun eatin ... ya ... den chien went hm first ... den after eatin n givin 0ut pressie , we went hm ... den after tt , i g0t the biggest surprise fer the dAe ... haha... thank euu s0 muchies ... i m verii t0uched... l0l ... ya ... munzii ar... g0od in actin hUh ... hahax... thank euu t0o ... den al0t of things happened t0dae still . sum unhappii , sum happii ... may everythin be fine tmr !!~ it will be ... it muz be ... hahax.... den t0k on the f0ne n0w gg tuh slp ... gd nites ... best valentine = ]

t0 : F ! - SCOLD ME FER ALL U WAN . I NOT GONNA CARE ANIMORE.

`` s0rry fren fer n0rt bein myself t0dae... cheer uP !!!

``[[ dun let the happiness slip away 0nce m0re ...i n0e i wUn ]] [[ u will find ur happinEss s0medae as well ... i believe ... ]]

Y Monday, February 13, 2006Y

5:44 AM

13.02.06- t0dae is a BAD dae... verii BAD ! argh ~ ... earlii in the m0rnin gt st0machache ~ argh... v0mitted in sch ... den dUrin c0mmon test , went t0ilet t0 v0mit and i dUn hab enufF tiMe t0 finish my test ~ argh !!! den went fer pE den went fer recess ! i l0st my wallet !! verge 0f gg mad ! this s0meone stolen it if i m n0rt wrong !!! is e first time 0f 2006 , i cried s0 hard ! as if is the end of the w0rld ... but is 60 bucks eh !!! t0 me is al0t l0r... s0bx ... i kept on cryin cryin n cryin thru 0ut the dae ... esp durin maths remedial ... l0l .. just can't stop cryin !!! mr ne0 g0na pay fer all my breakfast n lunch !!! he said tt himself ! hahax... free lunch c0z i m br0ke ... i will find ne0 everydae fer my meals !! l0l ... den went tuh jp with l0vers n xian ... feel s0 sad c0z i supp0se t0 buy stuffs with them t0dae ... bud i l0st my m0ney ... thx peeps fer wantin t0 lend me m0ney n stuffs ... i m s0 t0uched ... l0l ... haix ... can't help feelin sad bout my wallet ... esp my ez-link card n the 1 n onli ne0print ... haix ... den met z0e at 307 . she is s0 swit . she gave me a l0llipop t0 cheer me up . thx . thanks tuh all peeps tt care and asked bout me ... =] dEn went hm first ... den went tuh take $ n went l0t one with lays ...
Argh ! heAd is burstin ! eyEs are sw0llen ! s0 uglii !! ``

-``[[ e st0ry 0f the c0w n pig ... g0es 0n ... ]]

Y Sunday, February 12, 2006Y

5:16 AM

12.02.06- t0dae went tuh mun's hse ... hahax... s0 manii things happened... we b0th were kinda high wen she ... AHEM ... [ details missing ] ... den we talked al0t t0dae... we reallii can tok n crap n0n-st0p ... hahax... t0ok al0t of weird pics and stuffs ... den went tuh my aunt hse tuh take my charger n help mun wif some stuffs ... den g0tta t0 n0e some things ... stressed ... h0pe they are n0t true ... *cross finger* ... wat shld ii d0...? everythin will be finE ... it wilL be ... c0z i m mrs kind s0ul ... l0l ...

dedicated t0 mun- `` dun give up s0 easily ... we are all behind U ... nth is imp0ssible babe ~

``[[ fer every w0rd u say , an0ther piece 0f heart u take ]]
`` [[ da peskii pig n c0w ... ]]

Y Saturday, February 11, 2006Y

10:29 AM

11.02.06- ytd slept at 2 plus after tokin to shikin 0n da f0ne ... den m0rning w0ke yp at 10 plus... feeling s0 tired... den prepared t0 g0 out ... den meet lays at yew tee den meet wood n mun in da mrt... den we went ta0 payoh... mun was extremely high t0dae !!! omg !~ reason being ... ahem .. den went tuh eat macs... mac again ... n0t sianz yet .. l0l... den after eating , went tuh k-b0x... haha... sang n sang den ivan came ... den chang n dester came t0o ... we b0ught cake fer ivan ... t0 celebrate his bdae ... hahax... l0ts of fun t0dae ... yeahs ... den sang ai mei twice... crazii 0 ... watste time nia ... o0ps... hahax... den went tuh 0rhard after kb0x... den went tuh eat my fav beef rice... but it kinda sux t0dae... cann0t even finish it ... ai y0 ... feel like v0miting ... den went tuh take ne0s... it was cha0tic l0r... haha.... m0stly ne0s taken were bAd... n it came out bad as well ... omg ... den t0ok f0tos den t0ok taxi h0me ... supp0se t0 g0 mun's hse . bud ii was feelin unwell . s0 ii didn't went ... s0rry mun ...[[ details missing ]]

``[[ it is the care tt ii m falling deeper.. ii wud sacrifice all f0r tt... ]]

Y Friday, February 10, 2006Y

7:37 AM

10.02.06- HAppii BdAe t0 IVAn !!!
t0dae was a peSkii n l0ng dAe... went uP fer in t0uch t0dae ... it t0tally Sucks... my mind was blank n ii paused fer s0 l0ng ... omg ... it was s0 malU ... hahax... den went back tuh class ... less0ns were b0ring `... with emaths test n stuffs... chinese test sux as welL ... den went 0Ut tuh kenny's cafe tuh eat luNch ...den rum0urs flying alL ar0und ... hahax... peskii` den went back tuh sch and crapped with shikin , ralvin they alL... wei lian ??? hahax... tt was funnii ... verii funnii ... imitated welL ... marvell0us .... hahax... luffed like mad ... den went fer the release 0f 0s' ... hmm... they didn't d0 well ... haix ... h0pe 0ur batch d0 well ... hahAx... den loitered ar0und n stuffz ... den went hm , changed and went 0ut with munzii ... we talked s0ooo much ... n0n-stop ... hahax... n it is n0rt enuff ~ hahax... den we b0th bought t-shirtz ! n i b0ught my contact le... ya ... den we went tuh eAt n luffed s0 muchies... ya den we walked tuh the wr0ng bus st0p n t0ok a l0ng time t0 reach an0ther bus st0p n waited l0ng fer the buS... and b0th 0f us were like thinkin wad tuh sing tmr ... peskii ya ... hAhax... den after t0kin n singin s0 much .... we b0th reached hm ... tired-....

``[[ ii am falling deeper and deeper... wat if i can't climb uP anim0re...? wilL ii onlii get pain n hurtz....? ii w0nder ...]] [[ dun let the w0rst thing happen ... tt i th0t ... u l0ve me t0o ...maybe it juz a dream ]]

7:31 AM

Y Thursday, February 09, 2006Y

3:43 AM

09.02.06- t0dae was a sad dae... everything was s0 c0old .... i nv felt this way b4 ... it was SAD n quiet ... haix .... things g0ne wr0ng . verii wr0ng ... i m IGN0REd ... why am ii oways e 1 l0okin onlii at ur back ... everythin is juz n0rt rite ... ii stepped 0n the verge 0f breaking d0wn ... i dun wann t0 hear the truth anim0re . maybe itz juz t0o late ... tt was my w0rst thing ever tt i th0t u l0ved me t0o ! ~ i regretted s0 can ii turn back onlii n0w ...? mybe l0ve is onlii a feeling .... n0 mood tuh bl0g le ... b4 ii end , me n mun saw the fulL rainb0w `` h0pe the rainb0w will change my fate and everythin will g0 rite finallii ... 0r n0rt i wun be able tuh take it anim0re.
n0w ii realised that hartt can be s0 fragile at times .

desperate for changing . starving for truth . i'm closer from where i started. i'm standing here until u make me move .

i dunn0 why , i can't keep my eyes 0ff euu ... all of the things that ii wan tuh say juz ain't cumin out rite ... i'm tripping inwards...u gt my head spinning and i dunn0 where tuh g0 frm here...

[[-glam0ur0us Queen-]]-[[ i still wann ur eyes onlii 0n me ... -]]

Y Wednesday, February 08, 2006Y

4:27 AM

08.02.06- t0dae is a peskii dae... haix ... saw tt pers0n ! reallii hate her tuh the c0re. s0 fake ~ judge me as much as u wan . i dun wan care anim0re . omg ...erms... sch was n0rmal ... nth muchies ... class was b0rin ... ya as usual ...haix...
went tuh ch0ir ... arhs ~ clear things lE... happii : ) den left and waited fer p0or lays ... ya ... was kinda high ... d0ing stupid things n luffin ~ hahax... luff s0 muchies... den went tuh jp . den wen tuh eat ... hAhax... guess we were mad !~ luff t00 much ... ai y0 ...

[[-glam0urous qUeen-]] -[ ii l0ve euu . believe me i d0 . bud the w0rst thing was i th0t u l0ved me t0o . -]]

Y Tuesday, February 07, 2006Y

3:44 AM

07.02.-05- [[-DISAppointed-]] s0 manii things tt happen t0dae... they arE alL s0 damn disppointing... everythiing is 0ver !
i can't take the c0ldness i m getting... why things changed s0 fast ...? we were 0nce tt gd... nvm ... ii m juz gg mad ...
supp0se tuh be a big dae ... n0w itz 0ver ! 0ver 0ver 0ver ~ -[e n d]
ii heArd tt ! i actuallii heard tt !~ itz damn hurtin n w0rse ever ... h0w can u even say tt... i m disapp0inted ... i th0t i could be str0ng n f0rget wat ii heard but s0rry i can't ... it went d0wn deep ! stab ! THE PAIN IS TERRIBLE ! why can ii still smilE?? disapp0inted !~

munzii- pls be str0ng .... everythin will hab a gd ending ... dun cry babe ... cheer up : )
lays- dun blame urself ... it is n0rt ur fault and n00ne will blame euu ... we will be there fer euu ...
k0h- hahax... cheerful gurl... nv let us w0rry b4 ... thx babe ~

den wh0 is g0nna console me ? argh... nvm ...

DISAPPOINTED . -

[[-glam0ur0us qUeen-]]-[[ the c0ldness n disapp0intment is stabbin me frm the back . i m bleedin inside . dun drive me mad . - ]]

Y Monday, February 06, 2006Y

8:19 AM

06.02.06- t0dae is a tiring dae ... chinese less0n sux ... eek... weird ... weird... i feel s0 weird ... hab things g0 the wr0ng way ?? haix ... supp0se tuh g0 somewhere t0dae but in the end didn't g0 . den waited fer lays n mun . den went tuh gek p0h with l0vers , chien n ivan ... den met chang n dest they alL... den went tuh c dem cut hair ... Hahax... ya... den went hm ...
hmm ... l0vers' secretz are 0ut !! was sh0ckin~ s0ooo damn sh0ckin ... omg...
nerv0us. nerv0us . nerv0us . tmr is a big dae ... omg ... shakin like mad i guEss... l0l ...

[[-glam0urous queen-]] -[[ ii wan tuh be myself wen i m with euu...-]]

Y Saturday, February 04, 2006Y

12:43 PM

4.02.06- t0dae is a tiring and fun dae babe ... hahax... woke up in the m0rnin den pack n stuffz den t0ok cab tuh ah ma hse . den reached there n find out tat all the relatives are n0rt here yet . waste my time . hahax... bud nvm , catch up with my cousinz . den after tt , meet shikin first at the bus stop and she was LATE . askin me n0ort too ... hmm... hahax... den meet ralvin and set 0ff tuh chingay . den we went cityhall fer our dinner ... we went tuh LONG JOHN ( hated it most) ... the service there sux . the food sux too . the fish was inedible. den we told the crew there and all she said is ... sorry ar ... wah !! peskii sia ~ hUngry babe ~ den went tuh take bus ... shikin n ralvin were totally crazii ~ omg ... crappin n luffin all the way ... cool... den took 106 . saw this girl ... wah ... fierce sia . wateva cum out of her mouth ... are all *details missing*... den went tuh the chingay ... hahax... saw our wwss street rockers.. they were s0 high . den went tuh starbucks ... we were luffin like some kind and puttin sch badge on our shirt . omg . that's s0 ... ahem ... cool ... den went tuh see the chingay again ... and we were playin s0 much in front ngee ann city ... prayin and h0ldin hands somemore ... hahax.. omg ... den they met their fren and continue crappin ... ya ... den we went walkin and went tuh far east ... both of them were like ... omg... CRAPPIN !! over l0rs.... hmmph ~! den they went tuh dance ... i was nort high at all. standin there like one kind ... n0rt quite in the HIGH m0od... hAhax...s0rry ehs ... made it n0rt kinda fun anim0re... den left both of dem n went tuh cine to meet l0vers , ivan , gary , chang n wood. den shikin forgot tuh take her cam back n went tuh cine to find me . den after takin her cam , they left . den we took verii cool ne0printz ~!! omg ... the props were like ... COOL ... verii cool ... i like the hat n all tt... omg ~ den went tuh watch fUn with dick n jane... koh n lays were fallin asleep . overall sh0w kinda nice ... den we were crappin n luffin on our way tuh wood's hse... den after walkin and crappin fer s0 l0ng , we decided tuh take cab... ya .... den took cab to wood's place . den we were all hungry ... hahax... i was eating the duck's meat they left fer me all by myself ... s0rry gary ... hahax.... he was like snatchin my duck's meat !!! and i pushed him and he banged int0 p0or ivan wh0 was h0ldin the b0wl of maggi mee ... s0 they hab to clean ... i continued with my eatin ... den we went 0n luffin n crappin ... yea... den washed up and mun n k0h fell asleep , i was bl0ggin den lays were watchin and she slept t0o ... *details missin* den they guys went tuh play ... den dey came back . omg ... noisy sEh ... esp gary's v0ice ... hahax ... can't slp ... den w0ke up kinda earlii ... and ivan left at 6 plus am ...
05.02.06- we all w0ke up ... s0 tired ... den we headed tuh bugis to meet mun's cousin . den we decided to watch i n0rt stupid too ... omg ... my third time ... tt is s0 crazii ... den it was still earlii s0 we went tuh the arcade... n0rt fer girls ... we were b0red ... hahax... den we went tuh take ne0printz tgt ... hahax... fUn ... esp tuh ... lays ... hahax... den went tuh watch the m0vie . we were late . i was luffin n cryin ... lays cried the m0st i guEss... hahax... den we juz f0llowed mun's cousin tuh see her stuffz den we went hm ... wat a dae... with s0 much laughters n craps ... hahax... tired...

[[-glam0ur0us qUeen-]]-[[ i'm tryin hard tuh be myself wen i'm with euu-]]

Y Thursday, February 02, 2006Y

2:16 AM

2.02.06- i m havin fever... finallii ... l0l. didn't g0 sch t0dae. thr0at hurtz... st0machache cum headache . all cum in one dae . all bec0z of the beautiful sun . h0t like wat ... hmm... t0dae spent my day at hm ... slackin ... m0rnin went tuh see the d0c... the d0c abit t00oo weird bahs ... nvm ... den went hm and m0m went off tuh work . i f0rg0t to take my keys frm my m0m . omg... den ran to aunt's hse . lucky she is at hm ... phew ... den gt the keys le... den feelin verii bad , went tuh sleep until 5 plus . den woke up , watch tv n slack again ... tmr gt tw0 tests ! omg ... haven studii yet ...

03.02.06- went tuh douglas' bdaE at g0odwood's h0tel ... b4 tt , meet mei fang , xin ya , chien , douglas they all and went there tgt ... we t0ok ph0tos n crappin in the mrt ... den walked tuh the h0tel ... eat quite al0t ~ ya den t0ok l0tsa f0tos ! den went tuh watch m0vie ... tired ... den went 0ff b4 the m0vie ends ... den meet n0rman n k0r . went tuh cine n play billard ... tired

[[-glam0urous qUeen -]]--[[ why did euu f0rget t0 l0ve me till the end ....? -]]