thanks people for tagging cheering me up =)
mom read my bl0g.
we din quarrel at all.
she was nice to me .
been gg out with power rangers.
they were soo fun .
i l0ve them ！
loving my job at am club.
it is damn fun with lucas and thomas around.
and of cos Julian.
bud his accent is somehow going away. =(
so what if im pissed?
somehow the feelings are back.
yet it shud be left unspoken.
im keepin all my emotions behind.
You said, " suit u la. as long as u happy. do watever you wan! "
alright. im trying too.
avoid h0mee.
Now i want to tell you this.
I HATE GOING H0ME.
went to work.
did face painting today !
hees. im proud of my face painting.
thou i drew a rabbit to a cat on po0r helen's face.
LOL. bud i know the kids still l0ve my face painting. =)
saw lucas and thomas ~ sooo in l0ve with them.
and saw julian ! like finally ~
miss his accent . and the best thing is
HE REMEBERS MY NAME. =)
how co0l is that .
saw oliver! OMG. my hamburger ~
t0dae is my lucky day after 82378472347 yrs .
i miss the past.
i miss the times we spent.
i miss the days u bring me out to sh0p.
i miss the days we tok our harts out.
i miss the promises u once made.
where are y0uuu ~
你已不会再对我笑了。
此刻，我想你是真的离开我了。
you still dun understand.
i m on my way h0me hoping to tok to euu
bud to my dismay,
i saw wad i hate.
dun u touch me fucking idiot.
take ur hands off me.
dun tok to me.
dun stand close me .
just fuck off bastard !
now dat i tell euu
I hate u both !!!
thou u cant se this .
bud somehow this is the only way i can say wadever i wan tuh u .
yes , i know i hurt you al0t.
i blamed you for not being there
when i am going thru so much.
where are you ?
when i m crying so hard in the room?
where are you?
when i said i dun wanna slp al0ne.
where are your promises
when u once said no matter wad , mommy will be there.
yet all i hear from you is
" why make urself so cheap ? "
" why are you so useless? "
" You are just makin urself miserable. "
" dont u push the blame to me "
" next time , u are all alone. "
okok. i know.
its time to be independent.
its time to learn that ppl do change.
its time to let mom hab her own happiness.
s0rry mom for blockin ur way.
it will never happen again.
maybe ...
not seeing me will make u feel better.
mom . do u still rmb wad u once said ?
mommy love you ?
how true can this be.
actions speak louder than words.
i failed as a daughter.
This is max . that cute lil boy . bud julian is cuter =) hMms. wad hab i been doing these days ~
working at am club.
kept myself occupied so i wun be thinking too much .
ate poolside food for the second time with k0h tt day.
i really like the food there thou it was cold and soggy ~
hab not been opening my mouth and tok at h0me.
h0me no l0nger give me warmth .
i hate that feeling .
i really want to be the happy girl .
keep me busy busy busy !
school reopen fast !
i hope tmr never c0mes.
不准哭
轻轻拨动心的旋律
情不自禁想到你
那些甜蜜的回忆
总是不小心就淋湿了
我的眼睛爱情需要一些呼吸
偶尔保持一点距离
回到朋友的关系
任你自由的来去
从此想念你只能放在我心里
你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
为何你总是不说话
眼看我为爱不爱挣扎
你爱我吗
好久没有你的消息
心里还惦记着你
在这冷冷的夜里
感觉那么的熟悉
好想再见你想听听你的声音
感情的路总让人好无助
我会学着面对独处
给深爱的你祝福
你还爱我吗
一直好想问你这句话
却又怕听到你真实的回答
你还爱我吗
这是我唯一的牵挂
不管你会有什么回答
我会一直等你
你还爱我吗
LITTLE THOMAS =)
bud i woke up at 2 pm !! AH. stupid alarm clock did n0t ring !
MY GOD. i m working at 3 pm ! =(
i took cab there. i was so unlucky to meet this taxi driver.
he was driving so slowly, taking his own sweet time.
reached am club , he told me his machine might be down
so i cant use nets to pay.
he let me tried so many times. I told him i was running late.
den this irritating driver scolded me for not telling him earlier
that im using nets !
he is so rude to me . HELLO. im the customer here.
I did not flare up becos his stupid machine was down !
So i told him off. he sent me to far east plaza and draw money for him !
ahhh ! wad a day . i ran to am club.
ii was soo hungry ! thanks mun for helping me buy curry puff.
at least i dun starve to death.
worked at poolside.
lucas and thomas came .
had so much fun and it was so tiring .
makin sure they dun fight .
bud at least i dun fall asleep !
lil thomas came ! he is s0 cute lahhh !
den mun came to help me with my closing.
i dun like to do closing alone ! ARGH.
went to meet babii and chang.
ate ban mian for dinner.
LOL. den they started with their hairy jokes !
DISGUSTING but yet funny ! LOL.
took mrt h0mee.
PS : mun ! stop luffing at my hair !!!
there are new shows ! 美味关系and 公主小妹 !
i WANT to watchhh lahhh ! =)
迷宫
究竟你想什么但眼泪骗不了我
如果是命定恋人
为何还要对我如此这样残忍
记得你曾说过有个爱情迷宫
只要我们能够碰头就能天长地久
如果真的爱我
就别管怎么传说
让自尊它无情捉弄
关什么永恒不永恒
我不要自己一个人
去面对未知的迷宫
眼看着幸福就在前头却无法到手
不要自己一个人
无助的盲目去摸索
爱你我像个小偷
我可以装做不懂你不爱我
终于有了选择
我不是你的晴空
你的心不爱我
只能继续委屈做她的替代品
maybe life is just like that ~
I REALLY WANT TO COOK.
but i guess babii,koh,mun,shimin, rachel , joan are afraid of my cooking !
WHO WANTS TO EAT ?
Went tuh work by mrt.
i began to hate taking mrt.
it is uncomfortable and i cant get my beauty sleep. GRR.
i was late. Julian and his mom were outside waiting.
julian was soo cute. i just love his accent. =)
k0hs came. worked tgt means mad tgt.
at least ii wun fall asleep.
we decided tuh get our lunch frm poolside.
i ordered fish n chips and koh ordered caesar salad.
i thot it was really delicious. HAHA.
definitely not becos im hungry. i just t0t it was soo yummy !
waited for kohh tuh knock off. LOL.
she wanted to get herself a new name !!
'lulu' was the name she thot at first. i told her tt the maid tt came just now ard called lulu.
HAHA. my toes are laughing .
she accompanied me to go cut my fringe.
i swear this is the last time i go to two-way at far east.
the hairdresser's look made me irritated.
he doesnt give a damn bud hello ! its my hair that u r cutting !
angry * ii loook dumb in that hair. AHHHHH !
dun laugh at my hair please . I SAID please. LOL
headed h0me. mrt seats are really uncomfortable lah !
im hungry .
is there any ways that ii can stay in ur arm .
解脱- 李玖哲
爱永远都是难题
失去分寸太容易
谁都是凡人不够小心翼翼
有时候忘了珍惜
伤害来的太无意
有时爱太急
需要空间呼吸争吵愈狠痛愈深刻
然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得
现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱 最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过 遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱 连未来也没有我
爱着你 仍是我的执着
让你哭泣对不起 为了爱承受委屈
说过的承诺 其实还没忘记愈是在乎的关系
愈是相处不容易 伤害了你
我也失去勇气争吵愈狠痛愈深刻 然后不断自责
我们都忘了最初的快乐拥抱越紧痛愈深刻
谁不会舍不得 现在我给的或许并不是你要的
如果分离是唯一的解脱 最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过 遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱 连未来也没有我
爱着你 仍是我的执着
走到感情关键时候 却握不住你的手
还能有什么藉口 让爱再回头多少的爱说不出口
就让时间帮我说话 我一个人拼命挣扎总比两个人一起难过还好吧
如果分离是唯一的解脱 最后的话我来说
如果永远你不必再难过 遗憾让我来过
就算过去的回忆太脆弱 连未来也没有我
爱着你 仍是我的执着
爱着你 唯一的解脱
ph0tos with my cousin sheryl . =)
will update s0on.
been listening to super sad s0ngs.
getting all my em0tions g0 hay-wire.
bud somehow ii enjoy it ALOT.
its like being rich by keeping secrets.
went to work . today is sunday brunch. =)
phew. at least the kids there are better than last week.
except that one particular boy got to my nerves.
grrr. only if i could strangle him ! =X
went to po0lside. played with the kids.
i really love th0se kids. They are so adorable.
went h0me . prepare for dinner. =)
dolled up , w0re my new dress.
headed there.
sooo many people.
the food was nice. except the super slow service.
angry* bud at least im full ! =)
in l0vee with sad s0ngs
how they touch my heart. WAH WAH.
YEW TEE NEW DOUGHNUT SHOP. SO COOL!
TO MY DEAREST JOAN JOAN <33
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU !
LOVE THIS JOAN JOAN ALOT. LOL
ALWAYS LUFF WITH ME , JOKE WITH ME , PLAY WITH ME.
SOMEMORE TAKE BUS WITH ME.
stay pretty ahhhhh. <3>
i shall CALL JOAN THE JOAN JOAN.
HAPPY belated to sheryl lee !
LOL. always bully euu. sorry ahhh ~ =)
HAHAHA. this is a clever girl !
HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO KAT KAT ! <3
WITH her around , laughters will nv go away.
YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE =) 
HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO DAPHNE !
th0uu youu always bully me , bud I still like youu lahhh!
DONT be too peskyy !!! HAHAHA. SHE IS THE BIG BULLY!
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO BRENDA <3
AHHH guys guys ! nO popping of eyes !
I WILL ALWAyS RMB ur jokes ! =)
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO RACHEL. LOOK AT THIS FOTO.
ISNT SHE SEXAYY. GUYS ! DUN DROOL !
happy birthday to euu ! y0uu are my m0tivation to sch0ol ! <3
JULIAN =)
HAHHAHAHHA sot de !
ME n KOH KOH <3
ME N SHI MIN <3
Just feeling like bl0gging. Hands are itchy right now.
been working at am club. busy earning $ for my end of the year trip.
AH MUN. better dun back out h0r. its a must ! =P
t0day did bdae party at am club. I like doing bdae party.
c0s i wun fall asleep. =)
gotta update fotos too .
wait !!
HAPPY ADVANCED BDAE TO MY JOAN JOAN.
HAPPY BELATED BDAE TO KAT KAT , DAPHH AND SHERYL LEE ! =)
RAINIE YANG's NEW MV. She can dance real well lAh ! =))
Dun come back anymore.
Dun come back making my world as cold as ever.
Maybe I will do what you say.
I will give your words a consideration.
Maybe somehow you are right.
Somehow your words reflect me .
But . It is enough.
Dun you scold me cheap , disgusting and all sorts.
Cos I m not.
fucking hell just leave me alone.
Go play with others ~ NOT ME.
I DUN NEED FALSE HOPE HERE
TAKE IT IF U WANT.
I HATE YOUU.
Thank you so much for wasting so much time on me.
I know wad to do cos I am already big enough to think.
I may be stupid bud not that stupid still.
I can see and I know what is happening.
Maybe he doesn't love me bud so what?
If ur friend is so great ,
snatch him away from me and prove me wrong.
Show me how sweet both of u 2 can be.
I already shared so much memories with him .
The tears i shed for him, is one u can nv imagine.
The love i showered to him , is nv what u can give
The smiles we had tgt , will nv be the same for u 2.
I hab the sweetest memories. Do you?
I've no regrets .
Continue to hurt me .
If i die , u will be the murderer.
so pray hard that i don die.
U are not me.
Don ask me what to do.
U are not woody
U dun know how he feels.
CLEVER EUU.
U hab successfully drive me crazy
BUD I M GONNA TELL U THIS
ur fren may snatch him from me bud she cant snatch away my memories with him.
JUST LOOK AT HIS ROOM , U WILL KNOW
BACK OFF
FINALLY HER BIRTHDAY !
MAY ALL UR WISH CUM TRUE !!
HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY!
not feeling very well.
head is getting so heavy.
i cant breathe.
sorry . really sorry .
he is my one and only.
now i know how much ii need him beside me.
thanks.
im sick. im sick.
I never thought I'd need you there when I cried
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie
Is made up on your side
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you left
They lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do
When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me
When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you
你说我比较像你的好朋友。
你退缩 你冷漠
于是我放开双手
谁在乎我的心 还会不会寂寞。