.: g0odbyes really are f0rever;

Y Friday, March 31, 2006Y

8:54 PM

31.03.06 - HAPPII BDAE TO XIN YA ....
t0dae went tuh sch fer awards cerem0ny ... thx w0ods fer my breakfast... dun hab tuh eat bread . l0ls . afrizal was crazy durin the cerem0ny . singin his s0ngs... peskii ... den after awards cerem0ny , went h0me with mun ... thx mun fer takin the mrt to je ... l0ls... talkin and luffin ~ l0ls ...ne0prints? irritatin ~ ! hahas... den met w0ods at yew tee . went tuh 0rhard ... went tuh f0od republic t0 eat and headed tuh far east . findin ways to spend his m0ney at 77th street . l0ls . b0ught my cousin's bdae gift at last n he b0ught his shirt , necklace n badges... l0ls ... den went tuh manj0 ling0 ~ l0ls . crappin n luffin again ~ den went tuh suntec... walked ar0und aimlessly . hAhax. even visited the war mem0rial ... l0ls ... crappin 0n da way . den walked around suntec. nth much to walk either . at nite , ate burger king n went tuh see the fountain 0f wealth . oh ya . b4 tt , we went tuh the f0untain 0f wealth n wish ~ peskii ya ~ l0ls ... the fountain of wealth is indeed beautiful ~ l0ls ... crappin n luffin again~ l0ls ... muz learn to be serious ~ haha... jk ... den was gettin late , went tuh take mrt tuh g0 h0me ... mrt was full of ppl ... s0 crowded ! l0ls ... den we went 0ut of the first train n t0ok the next train . wah ... still s0 manii ppl . sianzati0n ... l0ls . den slept in the mrt... *too tired* den went h0me ...
s0rry ya ~ wasn't able t0 celebrate ur bdae ... =] tc

``[[ bec0z of euu , i m ablE t0 grab h0ld of my happiness n luff frm the bott0m of my hartt ... ]]

1:54 PM

Y Thursday, March 30, 2006Y

1:46 AM

30.03.06- m0odswings n headache again ... kinda sick 0f tt ... why is it always cuming ... haix ... less0ns as usual . mr ang came to class durin free period n spoilt it with his presence... l0ls ... class gettin kinda bad and made ms sim kinda sad... s0rry ~ den after sch , went tuh l0ok fer mr chiam . h0pe he reconsider and let us change clAss ... l0ls... den went tuh jp tuh buy my m0m's shirt . went h0me ... went tuh buy s0meone's present . finallii found and carried tt heavy thingy h0me ... itz raining ... l0ls ... tired dae **

``[[ ii n0e fer sure h0w much u realii mean tuh me ... i juz wanna be where u are :. ]]

1:40 AM

29.03.06- less0ns as usual ... ablE t0 d0 maths lE... finallii... l0ls ~ dEn after sch , went fer the awards dae rehersal . we were sitting in the hot sun fer so long juz to wait fer the rehersal to start . everyone was burning... H0t ** den the rehersal was kinda b0rin .... bud was fun seein mun gg up the stage with alL s0rt of expressi0ns ... l0ls .. den after the rehersal , went 0ut n buy fries while waitin fer mun . den went h0me ... crapping all the way ... l0ls ~ den slept all the wae til 9 pm ...

``[[ with euu around , everywhere is fulL 0f happiiness :. ]]

Y Wednesday, March 29, 2006Y

1:40 AM

Y Monday, March 27, 2006Y

8:04 PM

27.03.06 - t0dae in class was s0oo high ~ l0ls... okies... less0ns as usual l0rs... den after sch went fer principal's talk .. den requested fer a change 0f chinese class.. l0ls... h0pe can ... =x saw the p0cky stick ... first time i noticed it ~ disgusting !!!! i feel like pukin the m0ment i think 0f it ! lays , dun ever give it t0 me pls ~ omg ... s0 ... eEk ! dEn went tuh jp ... *details missing * den b0ught present ... *crappings* xian n w0od were high ... =x den went h0me ... *details missing* the heart painn was s0o real ... rashes ! gt rashes ~ arh ! itchy ~

didn't n0e tt our frenship is tt fragile ... every sorry u 0nce said made n0 point n0w ... i felt s0 disappointed ... ii reallii treated u as my g0od fren . c0z u are a great pers0n . bud the treatment i g0t back was juz ... being invisible tuh euu ... nv th0t tt we wud ever turn out this wae c0z u once said u'll nv treaT me in this way ... n0w tt i hab taste it ~ thanks s0 Much ... i reallii felt sad n it was a waste . but thinkin back , if tt's the way , i shld let g0 and m0ve 00n ... l0sing a fren isn't great ... and i hate it ... u hab been a great fren tt nv fail t0 make me luff ... thanks fer the mem0ries ... u are stilL my fren always n0 matter wad...

watched campus ... wah ~ geraldine r0x ~ haha... she is s0o cool... ii l0ve her shirt ... nice da0 ~ geraldine jia y0u wors... l0ls... v0te fer her !!

eunice is getting str0nger each dae...

[[ `` weneva ii m tired 0f this w0rld , ii n0e ii will always hab euu t0 lean 0n ...aishiteiimas :. ]]

Y Sunday, March 26, 2006Y

2:53 AM

26.03.06- t0dae met w0ods at je and headed tuh jp . crapping as usual . den meet martin . we went tuh macs tuh eat and went tuh tw0 way . martin cut his hair ... l0ls. l0oked s0 much better . =] den we parted 0ff . me n w0ods went tuh bishan t0 buy sweet secret . yummii ... den we went tUh bugis . eat our cake n t0ok ne0s ~ cake was yummii ~ sweet secret r0x ! den met chien n ivan . tok awhile n we went tuh buy the necklace... i liked it l0ts... l0ls ... dEn went tuh marina sq... saw the switch bag ... verii nice ... it c0st $89 . much m0re ex than the fred perry bag ... pondering which one tuh buy stilL. bud ii like fred perry design . bud switch was s0 c0ol ~ l0ls ... argh ... hard decisi0n ... den we were crappin l0ls... den were luffing mad bt doing smth n run away ... =x o0ps... hahax...juz g0t s0 much things t0 crap about ... l0ls ... den went tuh esplanade n clark quey... realised there are s0o manii sh0ps in marina sq... wah ... =] den we kept on walking and walking ... l0ls... legs were tired... m0uths will nv be ? hahax... den went h0me ... *details missing* didn't went mang0 ling0 todae... and missed the chance of seein my bag ~ l0ls ... =] fun dae

``[[ with0ut euu , my life will nv bE s0 c0lourfuL . aishiteiimas :. ]]

Y Saturday, March 25, 2006Y

7:47 AM

25.03.06- t0dae went fer flag-dae. still n0t feelin verii welL . den went tuh clemEnti . started asking fer donati0ns... it was tiring . den went tuh eat at macs den meet mun , mich , w0od n chang . den mich's was alrd fulL . she was great at tt . l0ls ~ dEn t0ok bus back tuh sch0ol . den went h0me . i was s0oo high suddenly . l0ls . crappin n playing ~ ... den went tuh bugis with m0m . b0ught pants n 2 shirt . ate in bugis cafe ... yummy ~ dEn m0m was complainin tt i'm getting fatter n rounder and asked me n0t to eat . itz time tuh diet . wat a peskii m0m ~ den headed tuh far east . b0ught pants n 2 shirts ... wah ... m0m was in gd m0od . she was s0 mad to pay fer all of tt ! den saw the fred perry's bag. $69 ! wanna buy !!~ tt bag was nice ~ dEn went tuh mang0 ling0 . the b0ss treated me tea egg . s0 nice of her !! l0ls ~ den went h0me . *tired* thanks m0m fer all the cl0thes ! l0ve my m0m! =]

``[[ ii'll cherish every part 0f euu c0z w/o u beside mii , i can't m0ve on- -]]

Y Friday, March 24, 2006Y

6:29 AM

24.03.06- having fever . yet still updatin . l0yal bl0gger. t0dae less0n as usual. h0pe this time my lit will pass. c0z i did study... kina hard =x durin p.e , mr ramesh wasn't here. den we played own games. we gurls were mad. luffin n playing . den sch ended. w0od went fer inter-sch relay n they came in 3rd. c0ngrats w0r !~ den went tuh mun's hse. crappin n t0kin . *details mssing* den meet w0od. den accompanied him g0 buy sh0es n went h0me . den dun feel like gg h0me s0 we went tuh buy ice cream n f0od tuh eat ... crappin n luffin ... *details missing* ... dun let me w0rry by doing tt . thanks fer the m&n.... havin fever n0w... h0pe will be fine tmr . muz g0 flag dae...

``[[ ii nid euu m0re n m0re each day ... ii pr0mise ii will nv st0p luvin euu .. ii nid euu t0 be happii ... ]]

Y Thursday, March 23, 2006Y

9:22 PM

23.03.06- happii bdae tuh gary ... l0ls . lays , i rmb this dae ... mun didn't cum t0 sch todae due to her gastric . we had the p0st-sec talk . muz work hard on my maths . it is verii impt to be eligible t0 poly n0rt f0rgettin my combined humans . ii hate tt subj c0z i can't seemed t0 score welL . den went back fer cme . me n mun are d0wn fer the service learning presentati0n . She said was due t0 our health conditions . =x durin ss , we did grp work . i was s0 serious with it . l0ls . can't stop luffin as we present wen mdm thr0w us the questions. thr0w ? s0 we hab to catch it ? l0ls ... tt was funnii . tuh me at least . physics time .... can't stop luffin wen w0od was saying ... ghost story . l0ls . hate chem less0n t0dae . my ears were sufferin ... poor ears. i reallii hated tt bloody sound . s0 pls stop doing tt . my ears cann0t take it l0rs. it is not even funny to make some0ne suffer . try puttin a knife in ur ear . see if ur ears hurt ! so pls stop it ! dEn went fer S&D rehersal . i gt nth to d0 at alL . den went with chien to send averil t0 gek p0h . den went back tuh sch . it was a "cold" walk . l0ls.went back tuh the hall. michelle merely came cl0se tuh me , ms sim gt so excited and ask us not to sit tt way ... corrupted mind . den others started tokin bout tt ... peskii . den hadi did smth . i juz passed a remark n everything g0 bonkers. wat a gay . l0ls . den they juz can't seem tuh stop tokin bout tt . luff n luff . =x den went tuh jp .saw campus superstar , geraldine ! omg ~ she l0oked s0o c0ol... she rawks ~ met gary with lays n w0ods . crapped den went tuh ljs. they decided n0rt tuh wait , me n w0ods went tuh take mrt . dad called wen i was gg to reach je . he wanted me to go back to boon lay n g0 grandma's hse . i was feeling so pc and he wanted me to go back . ARH ~ nearlii went mad . den went back jp n waited fer me . i was scolded again . sick n tired of tt . felt better wen ii reached grandma's hse . melanie is so cute . she can walk n run ... l0ls . l0ve her tuh bits ... den tok to martin n sheryl . t0 mart : if u reallii l0ve her , persevere 0n bahs ... if she ain't gg to appreciate , she isn't w0rth ur luv at alL. den went h0me . ears bursting . s0rry if i m nort ur good daughter . bud we ain't giving euu ani pressure and u got rid of us so easily . m0m is the 0ne workin hard fer this family. i blamed myself fer not being good. bud bear in mind , who caused everythin at e start ? ... breakin d0wn this time sh0wed tt i m n0t strong afterall . esp in front of dad . 0nce my cl0sest bel0ved dad. unbelievable . i n0e u l0ve us t0o bud u l0ve us in the wrong way . i nv ever deny tt u aren't a great dad . U still the best dad in the w0rld ....will ani0ne n0e wat ii m g0ing thru ...
went h0me . gonna study fer lit ... argh ... =s
things not gg right . wen wilL all these end ... say wateva u wan . i give n0 damn. i am reallii tired . pls dun gib me extra pr0bs aim0re...

[[`` u gave me the wilL n strength tuh m0ve on ... w/0 euu , i wun be able t0 make it thru ... is the care ... all ii nid n0w is a shoulder t0 lean 0n... ]]
`` h0ld mii cl0se n say u'll be dere fer me n0 matter wat ...

Y Wednesday, March 22, 2006Y

5:44 AM

22.03.06- less0ns are b0rin ... as usual . chi less0n sux ... u made me hate chi . tt's why ii dun listen . watever . i turned frm bad to worse . c0ngratz . den after sch , was doing my lit . gt s0 stressed up . =x argh ~ read it s0 mani times . juz can't sEemed t0 get int0 my head . den went tuh eat . feeling s0 much bettEr . den went tuh gek p0h . mun passed smth to averil den we ate at macs . den were crapping . den went tuh jp . lays searchin fer gift . waited fer w0ods to cum . den she b0ught her gift . den went h0me . *details missing* ...
ii m contented with wat i've g0t . s0rry to let euu w0rry ... ii m fine ... =] crying can onlii help fer awhile . the pr0b lies with me ... it is time t0 m0ve 0n ...

``[[ n0 0ne understand m0re than ii d0 h0w much euu meant tuh me - - ]]

Y Tuesday, March 21, 2006Y

4:48 AM

21.03.06- reallii w0nder wat iis wr0ng with this w0rld . may ii n0e why are u saying others wen u are doing it urself . n0 one is perfect . u r n0t as welL . it d0esn't pay even if u r kind . n0w ii n0e . tt realli spoilt my mood n i noe clearly wat it refers . i n0e i shld not even gib a damn bout it . tt reallii pissed me off . totally . there is reallii smth wrong with this world . scold me if u are reallii tt perfect . look at urself . do u even hab the whole w0rld tuh urself . stop ur nonsense . tt made me sick . ii n0e clearly wat ii m doing . even if i mistaken or wat , this isn;t the first time . if u r reallii tt unhappii , cum n talk it out with me . u as0 n0e h0w tuh say tt , yet u can't d0 it urself . pathetic. st0p ur shit n m0ve on with ur life . thank euu .

``[[ ii m nort born to please everyone . back off . ]]

3:09 AM

21.03.06- t0dae rev up . play push ball ... reallii is r0ugh sia ~ l0ls ... mun n lays became the laughing st0cks ~ hahax... is funnii da0 ..... luffin s0 muchies in the m0rnin ~ den free peri0d . sianz ... den less0ns as usual . thx lays fer helpin me draw ... l0ls ... den after sch , gt physics pratical . den chang waited fer us . i br0ke the converging lens ! shit ~ $10++ l0rs ... s0bs... den was rushing to k0h's hse tuh watch campus . me , chang n lays ran to k0h hse . we wEre like mad ppl and chang was like stilL crappin tryin tuh make lays luff . peskii . dEn wen we reached k0h's hse , her ah ma said she went malaysia . omg ~ our harts sank. l0ls. we ran lehs ~ tt's is s0oo hard fer me yet i ran . l0ls . den she was n0t at h0me. there g0es my sh0w . argh ~ wan see zhiyang see tt s0ng de l0rs. *ARGH* den we walked t0 kenny's cafe n eat . we were crappin n luffing again . didn't n0e chang was a brave b0ii huhs ~ l0ls . s0oo shocked . haha. den talk n talk . dEn went back tuh find mun . den went jp . accompanied mun eat ljs. den while she was eating , we crapped again . luff n luff . peskii . den walked around . saw ker0 ! he worked at jp . l0ls. den we 4 took cab . dropped mun n chang at lakeside. stupid taxi driver . walked big rounds . cheat our m0ney . cheated lays $2. stupid face ! hAhax... den went h0me .

juz s0me th0ts . after listening tuh him ... i realised the happiiness i m living in n h0w luckii m i ... .. we are s0o different . she is luckii tt she f0und him wh0 is willing tuh give it all 0ut s0 much . n0 matter h0w tired . i n0e he is willing t0o . =] jia y0u bahs... ii m givin as much as p0ssible bud i realised is n0t enuff . ii will w0rk hard stilL... t0 be continued ...

[[ `` ii f0und myself missing euu weneva u are not dere . i realised h0w deep ii fell ... ii luv euu -]]

Y Monday, March 20, 2006Y

5:38 AM

20-03.-06- eyes sw0llen ... tired ... ytd slept at 1 plus tuh 2 . first dae 0f sch... less0ns were b0ring ... l0ls .... den having st0mach upset. pain like helL . felt better after eating ... phew ~ after sch , went tuh bugis with w0ods t0 search fer his br0's present . ate 0ld chang kee twice . l0ls. den b0ught his br0's present . den went h0me ... *details missing* everythin was rite on the first dae... l0ls...

``[[ sumtimes it is hard tuh h0ld 0n .bud let 0ur hartts be str0ng ... ii nid euu]

Y Sunday, March 19, 2006Y

5:07 AM

19.03.06 - meet w0ods at je den went tuh aljunied . he went tuh cut hair while ii wonder around n ate my lunch . l0ls . independent lia0s ~ *proud ... den walked around c0z it was my first time dere. after finish cuttin , we went tuh bugis . crappin again . l0ls . den went tuh orhard .den slept . l0ls. tired... went tuh mang0 ling0 . played with happy . she is s0o cute l0ls. b0ss verii g0od ~ treat us big biscuit ~ papaya still tasted s0o gd ~ l0ls . den went h0mE. *details missing* crappin again ... sch reopening ... l0ls ... dun bully my b0abeiis l0rs !

[[`` the t0uch 0f ur hand says u'll catch me wenever ii fall ... - - ]]

Y Saturday, March 18, 2006Y

8:20 AM

18.03.06- m0rnin f0rced tuh wake up by m0m's call . headed tuh cut hair . cut my fringe. s0oo weird . l0ls. will gr0w back de ! den rushed t0 cck . den meet mun n w0od. den we went tuh far east . mun was talkin bout the " nan peng y0u " thing and ii g0t s0 high ~ l0ls .... it was funnii ~ den went tuh buy mun's stuffz and went mang0 ling0 again ~ l0ls. the b0ss treated us a alm0nd pudding t0dae. s0 swit 0f her . l0ls . den ii tried the durian pudding . yummi ~ l0ls .dEn we went cine . t0ok ne0s . den went tuh eat . m0odswing ~ headed tuh bugis . nth reallii much . hab a urge tuh buy cl0thes ~ l0ls . den we were crappin ~ f0rever de lahs ~ den walked around . went tuh eat at bugis cafe . l0ls. yummy .*details missing* den went h0me after walking . me n w0ods were crappin again . l0ls . *details missing*

``[[ ii nv walk away .: ii will nv leave u behind :. ii will nv n0t need euu :. ]]

Y Friday, March 17, 2006Y

4:59 AM

17.03.06- m0rnin went tuh sch . den b4 tt , went 0ld chang kee . b0ught rice . l0ls. c0z hungry mahs . den met mun den went sch . den eat n eat den went tuh class . b0rin ~ kinda ~ den went kfc with l0vers , w0od n chang . den crappin again ~ den t0ok mrt . realised it is still earli . me n w0od went tuh walk ar0und . crappin n playin as usual ~ l0ls . ear...? ehs ~ =x s0 high ~ hahax... den it rained . sian ... l0ls . den went h0me ... tmr gg mang0 ling0 ! yeahs !

``[[ ii'll stop breathing b4 ii'll ever st0p needin euu :. ]]

4:22 AM

16.03.06- m0rnin went tuh sch fer the enrichment pr0g. is sianz da0 . l0ls. den after tt went h0me ... was s0o hungry ~ *details missing* ii m a crybaby ~ thx mun fer ur " dua pui te " j0ke ... l0ls... den went h0me ...
meet w0ods at yew tee mrt . den went tuh 0rhard . wah ~ n0w green is the "in" c0lour fer middle-aged n 0ld ppl ~ l0ls. n0rt bad arhs ~ hahax. wh0le cabin was filled with green ppl ... den went tuh cine . watchin y0urs, mine n 0urs at nite . den went tuh walk ar0und ~ aimlessly again ~ ... been walkin 0rhard fer s0oo manii daes ... *details missing* CRAppin n luffin as usual ~ l0ls... h0w can we n0t crap n luff ya ? dEn w0ods b0ught a t-shirt . drank mang0 ling0 again ! haha. papaya n kiwi ~ l0ls... as usual ! yummii !! den went tuh watch m0vie ~ y0urs, mine n 0urs is highly rec0mmended ~ verii nice n funnii . esp the pig ~ l0ls ... den rushed back tuh far east ~ tuh take back deposit ~ l0ls. luckii can sia ~ crawled in like s0me kind. *details missing* mun n0w happi w0rs . gt new necklace ~! cheaper s0 much l0rs ~ tt sh0p cheat m0ney huhs ! l0ls ... *details missing* was tired. slpin again in the mrt ~ l0ls... headache !~ den went h0me.

``[[ the smile 0n ur face . the truth iin ur eyes. let me n0e tt u nid me :. ]]

Y Wednesday, March 15, 2006Y

10:21 PM

15.03.06- m0rnin meet w0ods at je . den went tuh sch0ol . missed 2 buses . l0ls. den finally t0ok 172 . dEn went tuh chem . d0in pratical t0dae . n0t as b0rin as the0ry th0u . den t0ok mrt h0me . slept fer awhile and waited fer mun's msg . den went tuh l0t 1 meet michelle and mun . after eatin , went kb0x. we sang n sang . luff n crapped. we all were peskii !! hahax... verii peskii i mean ~ we all went mad . den we onlii sang fer 3 hrs l0r . den we were chased 0ut . haha. den michelle went hm . me n mun went tuh the t0ilet , den we were talkin inside, again we were chased 0ut . wh0 sae cann0t tok inside the toilet. peskii ! den we t0ok 190 tuh far east . l0ls. we luffed like mad inside . *details missing* den w0ods came n meet us . den i b0ught my specs . l0ls. finalli . nid a haircut l0rs. hair sux . den went tuh mang0 ling0 ! l0ls. papaya again . den mun drank m0nkey business... yummy ~ l0ls . den we walked ar0und . mun was havin her st0machache again den we went h0me . *details missing*

ii can't help ... n0w ii n0e ii s0 usEless... can't help feeling sad... hate myself ~
``[[ ii shld hab pay m0re attenti0n tuh u ... d0 u n0e ii m w0rried fer u ? silence-- i'm gettin afraid 0f iit --]]

Y Tuesday, March 14, 2006Y

5:47 AM

14.03.06- ** eyes were tired... l0ls. went tuh sch feelin s0 d0wn . nv realised that the bus j0urney can be s0 saddening... l0ls. den reached sch . suddenly becum s0 high ~ l0ls.. den after lit , went fer chem ... lays n mun t0ld me bout chang ! i luffed s0 hard ... i can imagine his face. wah . funnii !! indeed lahs . den ii c0ncentrated in chem class t0dae. pr0ud of myself . actuallii is tuh divert my attention . l0ls. den went tuh physics . lays was reallii creative huhs ~ can be c0mposer lia0s l0rs ... they went mad ... hahax... peskii ~ *details missing* den went tuh l0t one with w0ods n mun . den eat kfc. mun finally ate her kfc. den went tuh popular . mun nid tuh get her stuffs . den went h0me . crappin again ... l0ls... * details missing*

[[`` 100 reas0ns - ii will be ur m0st l0yal audience... aishiteimas... -]]

Y Monday, March 13, 2006Y

11:22 PM

0nce again i messed things up . i reallii didn't mean it . it was my stupid thinking . if ii n0e , i would keep everything t0 myself . ii m reallii verii stupid ~ i d0 too much ~ think t0o much ~ hate myself ! i disappointed u 0nce m0re. i m sick n tired 0f myself . my hart hurtz 0nce again ... it came t0o fast . i think t0o much ....

11:17 PM

13.03.06- he was late . l0ls. t0ok bus 77 fer the 1st time . see ! l0ls ... den walked tuh yew tee. h0t day indeed. l0ls. den was gg t0 eat den changed 0ur mind . i b0ught my papaya n we t0ok bus t0 far east. having bus sick . siann . den went tuh mang0 ling0 again... ! w0od drank m0rning dew . l0ls. i tried a new flav0ur again . l0ls. ii still e same. wun change de. den the b0ss was s0 nice. she treat us cake . w0oh. muz g0 m0re often . it realli tasted like heaven ~ l0ls. den br0ught w0ods t0 library@ orhard. hahax. *details missing* den walked around kin0. fer b0oks? l0ls... learnt a new japanese phrase... den went tuh take ne0s... l0ls... den headed tuh bugis . walked up n d0wn bugis point ... den went tuh take a seat and talked... muz admit tt we are chatter-b0x. l0ls. den after talkin n crapping , we went h0me.* details missing*...

[[`` the past maybe bad bud ii n0e , with u , the future will be better.... aishiteimas:.. ]]

Y Sunday, March 12, 2006Y

8:01 AM

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l0ls ... airplanes ... c0ol ?

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ii wanna fly s0mewhere else t0o !

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g0 fer kfc pls ~

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taste like heaven !! papaya babe r0x !

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l0ls... the other side of me... l0ls

12.03.06- met mun at je stati0n . was late as usual . s0rry mun , t0 let u wait ... =x ... den headed t0 changi airp0rt. it was indeed a l0ng journey . crapping n luffing... she was mad t0dae... l0ls...den reached changii . den went tUh eat marybr0wn. i feel think tt KFC is the best ... l0ls... den went tuh search fer the viewing mall . wah sianz... nth tuh see de l0r. pathetic planes . s0 manii ppl s0mem0re. siann ... den c0ntinue walkin around . den b0ught fred0 t0 eat. n0t bad n0t bad . l0ls. den went tuh take the skytrain to t1. b0rin as well . l0ls. sad lehs ~ th0t airport was a great place. l0ls. den t1 nth aS well . l0ls. den went back . den my little t0e was injured ! pain! pain! l0ls ... den mun changed sh0e with me . c0z the pain was ... hell ! l0ls... den continued walkin around . t0ok sum f0tos . den headed t0 orhard. den took ne0s. s0ooo c0ol ... haha. l0ve the pr0ps as well . haha... den went tuh far east . t0ok mun t0 mang0 ling0 . drank papaya again~ papaya l0ver n0w . l0ls. den mun drank strawberry sweethart. wah ~ hers s0 nice as well . l0ls . pr0mised the lady dere tt i will g0 back next week . i will de. confirm ! l0ls. mang0 ling0 r0x !!! hahax... den walked around far east with my stupid leg. hab to wear the sh0es in a stupid way . l0ls ... den saw a specs tt i wan tuh buy . gg t0 buy it next week . l0ls. den after walkin , went back tuh mang0 ling0 fer papaya again! peskii rite ... l0ls ... n0 choice. it was s0 ... nice ... l0ls... den t0ok mrt h0me. *details missing* it was a l0ng walk h0me. t0ok me 30 mins t0 reach h0me .. l0ls.. first time sia . c0z of my t0e . p0or t0e. l0ls... it was a fun dae with mun... l0ls

[[`` we can't predict the future , bud we can h0ld on tight t0 the happiness we hab n0w... ]]

7:18 AM

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11.03.06- w0od came t0 my hse n meet me . l0ls. is tuh put tt pig ~ l0ls... it is s0 cute. thanks ya. den we headed to orhard. wat a h0t dae... stupid sun... den went tuh cine. b0ught d0rm m0vie tic. den was at 5.20. s0 we went tuh walk . l0ts of crappin n stuffs... hahax... l0ts of laughter t0o ... hahax... den walked around orhard aimlessly. l0ls. den went tuh take ne0s . pattern reallii m0re than badmint0n sia... l0ls... den eat . nasi lemak n0rt nice de... l0ls... den walked around with l0ts of craps.... den saw br0, n0rman they all. peskii l0rs ! den faster walk away. den went tuh far east. den talk al0t. chatter-b0x ~! l0ls... den rushed back tuh cine. den watched d0rm ... argh ~!!! peskii 0ne !!! *details missing* l0ts of commentz tuh that sh0w... =x den nth tuh d0 . walked tuh plaza sing ...b0ught my pig mirr0r... after shoppin dere , went back tuh far east... l0ls... *details missing* den found mang0 ling0 . the best sh0p ever ! my papaya babe tasted like heaven ! l0ve it l0tsa ! oh my g0d !!! l0ls... mad lia0s... 0ld chang kee was nice t0o ... l0ls...den talk talk den headed back h0me... slpin in the mrt... tired...l0ls... den went h0me to take his pressie fer him . *details missing* really chatter-b0x arhs. talk til 12 plus and he went h0me. thx fer everything ~ i will rmb this dae f0reva ...

[[`` n0 matter wad we g0nna meet in the future , ii n0e i will nv let g0 ... c0z ii l0ve euu ... ]]

6:40 AM

10-03-06- sch as usual... siann ... after sch , went h0me . meet lays and headed tuh orhard. den meet w0ody at far east . searchin fer stuffs. and i realised that actuallii orhard is verii small . after buyin my stuffs , went tuh bugis tuh buy a b0x. den went h0me. gastric again. den went tuh eat with lays n w0ods. they sent me h0me n lays came t0 take her stuffs. den they went 0ff. den was abt tuh g0 mun's hse. s0 asked lays n w0od to cum back n m0m sent dem t0 l0t 1 . den went tuh mun's hse. been s0 l0ng since ii last c her. den talk fer awhile. l0ls. den passed her hw... den went h0me. bz d0ing sum stuffs... l0ls... until 1 am... thx mom fer ur help as well ...

[[`` ii m n0rt g0nna leave. c0z this is the happiness i l0nged f0r... ]]

Y Thursday, March 09, 2006Y

6:02 AM

09.03.06- having m0odswings in the m0rning . shall n0t mention bout it. poor mun . havin bad stomachache. she went h0me. missed her s0oo much ... h0pe she get well s0on .. l0ls... less0ns were b0ring ... mt less0n sux as usual ~ simply hate her l0rs... first time gt such l0w marks fer chinese . haii ... hate her less0ns ! things wasn't s0o gd... things can't be perfect all the time. n0w ii n0e why . *details missing*
after sch , went l0t one with lays n w0ods . went tuh eat kfc ... mun is cravin fer it . l0ls... her s0ul was wif us ... in her dreams . rite? l0ls. den went tuh walked around . thx fer the pig hp strap ... l0ls... den went h0me... crappin all the way ... l0ls...

``[[ there is n0 turnin back in life ... u juz hab t0 keep 0n walking... ]]

Y Wednesday, March 08, 2006Y

4:07 AM

07.03.06- wasn't feeling well after ytd . havin gastric n all . s0 didn't g0 tuh sch . m0nrin meet w0od n accompany him g0 c d0c. t0dae was fast huhs . den crap n all . den we walk tuh l0t 1 and meet m0m . s0rry fer hittin u s0 hard =x n0t on purpose de. den went tuh eat macs tgt with m0m . we gt s0 much tuh talk ab0ut huhs . thx m0mmy ~ we n0e wat tuh d0 next t0 s0lve things le ... g0od advis0r . l0ls . den talk fer verii l0ng , w0ods went fer heats , i went tuh c the d0c . i still hab tuh run in order n0t to w0rsen my condition . i m physically UNFIT . l0ls . but i can stop wen i can't breathe . weird ehs . den t0ok my medicine n stuffs den went tuh buy my grandma's pressie . b0ught her a nice f0toframe . and put 0ur f0to ... l0ls ... den waited fer dad tuh cum . den went ah ma hse . t0k n eat al0t with cousins ... l0ts to catch up yeah . n0e each other secrets lia0s ... miss them l0ts . den celebrated ah ma bdae. ah g0ng's cookin is still e best !!! yummy ... thx fer the papaya as well . l0ls . den went hm . *details missing* i dun find anithing wr0ng with myself l0r !~ g0 ahead n nurture her t0 a lawyer . as if i care . i gt my own dreams t0 pursue l0r ! *spoiler !

[[`` iif u r tired , dun give up 0n me ... lean 0n me instead . i'll b there...]]

08.03.06- t0dae went tuh sch as usual . probability test sux ! i m givin crappy ans . h0pe mdm siti dun tear my paper away . i m givin crap l0r . i juz dun understand l0rs ... shit ... den heard smth frm u . kinda d0wn at first . u dun hab tuh luff n smile if u dun feel like it . it's ok n0t tuh be str0ng at times . the m0re u luff , the m0re u hide , the m0re i m sad. maybe i m thinkin t0o much . partly is bec0z of me ... haii ... distracti0ns !! bec0z of me ! hmm... den came back frm recess . was tryin tuh avoid everything ... av0id exchangin l0oks . av0id l0okin at tt directi0n . c0z i m afraid dat i cann0t take it ... i can't face u at that m0ment . i will think 0f the consequences . thinkin way too much . if u wann tuh smile n luff , let me be sad fer u . argh... weird . den was gg fine . things were gg fine i guess after t0kin . dun sing as well . tears might cum .... den went tuh ch0ir . t0dae is our last session . i will miss ch0ir ! thx fer the farewell . shikin ! thx fer ur card . i m s0o touched bud i m n0rt cryin .there are tears !! there are l0ls... u r the best ! ... den went tuh find w0ods n went hm . luffin away at yang chen ling's sis . baddies ... i will be fine after luffin ... c0ol ...
I M OK !! L0LS

can't imagine h0lidaes w/o u . tt dae w/o euu . bud it will be 0ver s0on ... i will bear wif it ... =] surprise !

[[`` u hab rights t0 be sad . u dun hab tuh be str0ng in fr0nt of me . c0z u will be tired one dae n i m afraid 0f tt dae tt u will ch0ose to let g0. s0rry ... ]]

Y Monday, March 06, 2006Y

3:57 AM

6.03.06- i hate weekdays ...
t0dae was a bad dae fer me . after running , i hypervented again . hate myself fer that . den was br0ught tuh the sickbay . hands were s0 cramped n painful dat i cried . l0l. tt was s0 ... ps ... den rested in the sickbay . den went tuh reccess. bud couldn't get anithing tuh eat . den mun was havin stomachache since m0rnin s0 we b0th went tuh sickbay . den rested n slept . den w0od n lays came . den t0k tok . miss tan came . den w0ods n lays went back . i didn't n0e tt we hab tuh sign in l0r . even is my f0urth yr in the sch . rubbish ! den went back tuh class . den went h0me ... *details missing*

``[[ i juz wanna be there with u wen u nid me . i wann tuh be the 0ne sharing ur happiness n burden ... i juz wann tuh see u smile ... ]] ]]

3:42 AM

4.03.06- m0rning meet w0ods at yew tee mrt . realised that the time was still verii early . s0 we sat at the platf0rm , crappin n luffin as the trains passed . den meet mun they all at bukit g0mbak and headed t0 the studentcare . missed that place al0t... l0ls... den played with the kids . benjamin came ~ it's been quite l0ng since i last saw him . missed him s0 much ~ he became a magician ...? he n his card tricks ~ ii m impressed .... l0ls... MY CRANES were missing ! peskii~ dunn0 wh0 gave it away ... can't find ... den went h0me with lays . den slept fer awhile while waiting fer w0ods n mun . den met them and went tuh w0ods hse . finally underst0od my amaths th0u we onlii did 3 qns. thx w0od . den went tuh slp . den had a war with w0od ..... s0rry t0 hit s0 hard... =x den went tuh eat with mun n w0od's family. den went h0me ...
5.03.06- m0rning met mun and went tuh tpy . l0tz of crappin in the mrt . den meet w0od n walter . den went tuh watch big mama . l0ls... it was a verii funni and nice m0vie . highly recommended . l0ls ... den after watchin , we walked out frm 1 of the exit , tt is the staircase ... 2 policemen stopped us . they were verii peskii l0rs... it was onlii 12 plus in the aftern0on lehs . of coz onlii a few ppl watched movie lahs . den expect us t0 cum out in big grps ... l0ls... den checked our ezlink cards and stuffs... wat a funnii incident . first time in my life . l0ls. den went tuh k-b0x . den first , we gt the biggest r0om ... l0ls... verii big ! with onlii 4 ppl inside . weird . den we were transferred t0 a smaller r0om . it was freezing c0ld ... l0ls. den we sang n sang ... crappin n luffin ... den we went tuh newt0n circus . crappin on the way . *details missing* den after eating , we headed h0me . it was a fun dae ... *details missing*

``[[ everytime wen we hab m0ved f0rward 1 big step , we b0und tuh g0 back tuh the startin pt wen the time strikes. ]]

Y Thursday, March 02, 2006Y

7:22 AM

2.03.06`` everything is fine ! i realised tt smiling is realii g0od fer health ! keep on luffing ... l0ls ...

Y Wednesday, March 01, 2006Y

5:44 AM

1.03.06- ERROR ! n0w i hab t0 retype . first time in my life , my bl0g g0ne wr0ng . *tired* less0ns were as usual b0ring ... den went tuh ch0ir . my hartt wasn't with the ch0ir t0dae . n0t f0cus at all . tears hangin dere . l0okin at the cl0ck . wat m ii doing ?! den went tuh l0ok fer mun n all . *crap crap * den went hm ... *details missing * things left unsaid ...

why m ii all0win ppl t0 affect me 0nce m0re ? ppl around me are givin me stress . bud pls ... i gt my 0wn rights t0 hab my own happiiness . if u reallii like tuh say s0 much , u either open ur bl0ody mouth n tell me straight 0r juz shut up n dun let me hear wat u say . u n0e wat u sae might affect things ? u r n0t up t0 it t0 ruin my life . s0 leave me al0ne . u may be rite . everythin may n0rt bel0ng to me . bud ii m b0rt greedii . i n0e wad ii wan . things tt dun bel0ng tuh me will leave me sumdae sumh0w . s0 u dun hab t0 worry . every0ne is waitin tuh c . bud excuse me . this is n0rt a game . n0rt a m0vie . dun mess up ppl's life . bec0z of u all , i break d0wn s0 easily even tuh the slightest thing n i hate it . c0z tt's n0rt me .

thanks mun fer waking me up . lucky u reminded me . i wun be s0 rash .... maybe i reallii shld learn tuh be independent and n0rt rely on him s0 much tt gave him extra burden ... i will learn s0 . all i nid is juz a smile . a smile t0 tell me everthing is fine . n0t a fake 0ne pls . after hearin tt , i n0e wat reallii is pain . my hartt hurtx... tears came fl0win bud i juz can't stop it . c0z i care . care s0 much tt i could feel the pain ... itz bleeding . bud i n0e ii will be fine . 0ne smile frm him n i will fine ...

s0rry ... i'm s0rry ... s0rry fer being s0 childish n i regretted thr0win temper bec0z of small things . th0se fears .... they are haunting me ... tt's why ii m actin this way ... i m n0rt readii t0 let g0 at all . maybe ii will nv be readii t0 let g0 ... c0z i n0e this r0ad is still l0ng . i dun wan t0 end here w/o gettin tuh a destination . h0pin this matter will make us str0nger and we hab faced 0ne obstacle in 0ur r0ad... tt will nv end ...

``[[ every tears i cried fer represented h0w much ii care fer euu ... ]] ii l0ve euu