
went tuh ah ma hse ... t0 celebrate melanie's 1 yr old birthdae... suppose s0 tt her birthdae is tmr , 1st jan but they are celebratin earlier... den came t0 ah ma hse t0o earlii... n0 ppl de... lucky gt martin t0 accompani me ... den play with melanie and slack ... around 4 , 5 plus , mani ppl came... sianz , i dunn0 de... den played with the kids den watch shi zi lu k0u... kenji s0 hands0me ! hahax... den went tuh meet yee mun n lays... luckily, dad sent me dere... den meet mun n lays at mac... we were like mad gurls ! luffiin away ... hahax... den afther much discussion , wE decided tuh g0 chin che0ng's hse ... ya ... while walkin past chien's hse , saw her al0ne , me , lays , chang , mun went in t0 disrupt ! hahax... pathetic t0 see us ! hahax... she was watchin er m0 zai shen bian ... after she explained , i gt to n0e the st0ryline ... hahax... den my lil br0 , chang was verii peskii ! snatchin that big ball frm me !! den we fought ! s0 childish ! hahax... den me n lays did smth verii gr0ss... m0uth tuh mouth sharin da h0td0g... hahax... can't stand ! haha... den we hab l0tsa fun at chien hse ! hahax... s0 fun ! i was like s0 damn high ! den went tuh steal f0od frm the guys ! hahax... i ate s0 little l0r ! den b4 12 am , we ran t0 their hse n countd0wn ! they s0 b0rin de !... ar nvm ... high among ourselves can le... den we t0ok l0ts of ph0tos ! hahax... den we bbq and eat ! hahax... l0tsa of fun ! ... den mun's sh0e was spoilt ! unlucky gurl !... den mun's m0m came and fetch her and she was 0ff... den chang n chien sent me n lays out waitin fer m0m... hahax... and we stood at the roadside talkin about the chinatrip ! nearly said things tt i shldn't said... phew... hahax... s0 funnii ... den my m0m came hahax... thx t0 mun , lays , chien n chang ! i hab a great countd0wn !....
1st jan- HAppy b'dae t0 melaniE !!! 1 yr old le ! hahax... t0 be continued.............
[[-glamourous queen-]]-[[ let juz turn all theSe t0 mem0ries ... ]]

`` h0pe my pain end at 11.59 pm tonite ....
`` hope alL my frenz wilL be happii ...
`` h0pe my l0vers wilL stay tgt 4ever
`` h0pe alL my dearest frenz are carefree
`` h0pe my familyz are healthy ...
`` h0pe ah ma n ah gong are healthy n fit ...
`` h0pe my studies improved ...
to be continued....
-- h0w ii wish alL these are n0rt happenin ... juz let it end ... i m gg mad !

ii m sick n tired of this ... u seemed t0 n0e my every m0vement... u make me afraid... u make me wanna cry ... my heart hurtz.... wat is wr0ng ... h0w to end ....
[[-glamourous qUeen-]]-[[ wanna cry hard fer this moment ... juz wanna end everythin N0W !]

29 dec- t0dae went 0ut with l0vers , chang and wei jun ... hahax... it was a mem0rable one ... tuh celebrate wei jun's bdae !!! hahax... ya ... den we t0ok mrt tuh bed0k den t0ok bus t0 east c0ast... hahax... t0ld my secretz t0 my l0vers... g0nna break d0wn s0on but i kn0w they will be dere fer me and rescue me 0ut frm this bl00dy ag0ny... den reached east c0ast den we went tuh eat mac ! hahax... den walked n g0 find wei jun and chang .... they t0ld us we hab tuh walk 1 hr den reach leh ! wah ! den we decided t0 rent bikes frm the 0ne we promised we will cum back ... s0 gd sia !... keep 0ur promise ... but he lied ... sae wat $3 is $6 l0r ! peskii ... it was s0 tirin wen we found them ... tired... den the aqua playgrd was s0 ... ex ! den we decided t0 g0 back t0 mac... hahax... poor wei jun n chang hab tuh walk back . s0 we decided t0 ride t0 jetty n take f0tos ... yea... we hab l0ts of fun at the jetty... den we r0de back tuh macs... my sh0es were spoiled ! ar ! den i t0ok chang's slipper ... hahax... n0 choice ar... den we went tuh return our bikes while changn jun l0oked after my third crown bao bao by lays and my slipper ... hahax... den afther returnin the bikes , we went tuh hab our sh0wer ... 50 centz lehs... peskii ... den poor chang hab to carry my slipperz n pressie fer me ... thx ya ! hahax... s0memore his slipper is with me ... den afther sh0wer , we meet dem again ... hahax... saw chang still carryin my slipper ...wat kind s0ul ... den i threw my slippers away ... and w0re chang's slipper tuh orhard ! ar... weird matchin ! den 0n the way , we ran fer bus n i l0st my clip ! s0b ! nvm ... haha... den we t0ok mrt tuh orhard... hahax... l0tz of luffin at the mrt ... wig? hahax... den me n chang exchanged 0ur bag... haha... dunn0 why , i liked his bag... hahax... dEn we exchanged it fer the wh0le day ... he even helped me take my pressie w/o ani grumble ! hahax... n0rt like jun ! hahax... jk ... den we reached far east n bought our clips ! finalli ... same as mUn de... i b0ught my sLippers t0o ... finallii found ... thx guys fer waitin fer me ... i m verii ch00sy ... hahax... den went tuh kfc ... me n mun n0rt g0na makan ! ... haax... den we hab l0tz of fun at the kfc... the smelL of coleslaw is like the smell of fart ! eek .... disgusted ... hahax... den afther tt , we went tuh heerenz and t0ok ne0s ... hahax... a peskii 0ne ... den afther tt , we decided t0 g0 k b0x ... den lays hab tuh g0 c d0c s0 we seperated with her n n0rt forgettin tuh give her 0ur l0vers' hug ... ya ... den went tuh cine's k b0x !... n0 k student de n it was ex ! s0 we decided t0 g0 j.E ... hahax... we reached jE... den we decided n0rt tuh sing k b0x lE... den we decided t0 watch chinese tall story ... chang , u promised me my kb0x kkz... dEn we stilL gt 1 hr tuh wait ... den we to0k f0tos n stuffz... hahax... den b0ught our f0od n went tuh the cine ... i was irritated and i can't concentrate on watchin the m0vie ... i was feelin damn d0wn and i juz feel like cryin ! sick n tired 0f everythin ... i wan it tuh end !!! overall , the m0viE was kinda nice ... den we went tuh take mrt... stilL dun wanna exchange back the bagz with chang and we waited fer the verii last min .... den we seperated 0ff... den dun feel like gg h0me ... s0 meet n0rman n br0 fer supper ... i onlii drank c0z i dun feel like eatin ... ya den went h0me ...
[[-glam0urous qUeen-]]- [ on the verge of breakin d0wn ... juz let everythin end ... right n0w ...]

`` [glam0ur0us queEn-]]-[ i feel cheated... is tt the truE euu ? ]]

den as time flies ... m0re n m0re ppl camE ! it was cr0wded like helL... we h0lded tight t0 each other but stilL we were l0st...
Th0se bloody bangala !! squeezin like helL !!! Bl00dyM0lester !!!!! they pushed my bag on the fl0or and i th0t i l0st my bag !! i cried n shouted like helL and ii was pushed on the fl0or... luckily , willie f0und my bag... phew... or n0rt i will go mad ... ! thanks willie !... den as i fell on the fl0or, it was damn scary ... th0se BLOODY bangala were makin use of the chance ! IDIOT !!! lucky wee kiat was there.... Ty wee kiat !.... finallii me n wee kiat get 0ut of the BLOODY crowd and we saw n0rman and alL... but we l0st the rest ~! n0rman was with k0r , ivan , ivan's bro , soon leng n zha0 mu . they were sh0cked tuh see me cry ... ar . pai seh ... den they helped me sh0ut fer the rest but it was too noisy ... we st0od up tuh the top n search fer them... * we juz couldn't find dem !~ den we saw lydia cumin 0ut frm the crowd... she was al0ne ... lucky some gd ppl n0rt like th0se BAngala !!! helped her out frm the crowd n f0und us .. phew... den left willie , han wei , k0h , mun n ling... den finally network is n0rt bz n we got thru dem !... they came out frm the crowd and saw k0h cryin ... ar... same bl0ody shit bangala !!! den hugged k0h n b0th cried ... juz felt s0 ... haix... den i gt over it and started my revenge !~... I told n0rman's gang n alL t0 spray wen saw bangala !~ th0se tt irriated us ! ... it may seemed racist but ... shit l0rx !... f0rget it ... hahax... den we get l0tsa fun th0u k0h stiL felt sad...hmm... den willie l0st his mp3 n han wei l0st his wallet... tt was s0 unlucky... den we went tuh search fer his wallet but cann0t be found anim0re... expected ... haix... den i went off with n0rman they all while mun they alL went tuh the police station n report... it was 3 plus am den ... tired... den we went tuh cine and slacked... ya ... ivan was mad ... mr poker ! st0p ur pokin l0r ! hahax... den yee mun they all came tuh find us .. we were all s0 tired... it was 5 plus am in the mornin ... ar... stiL at cine... den aftha dat ,we parted 0ff ... mun they alL went tuh take mrt while we alL went tuh take bus ... it was raining heavily !!!! ar... c0ld !~ den we ran tuh the bus stop ... ar... c0ld like hell ... den ivan their bus camre first ... s0 gd... den me , norman n k0r decided tuh take cab h0me ... see ~ ! WASTED the time waitin fer bus , in the end took cab... hahax... den reached hm about 6 plus tuh 7... tired... l0tz of details missin ** lazii tuh elaborate ...
thankz k0h weii fer buyin me the crown pill0w , thx yee mun fer the crown necklace , thx zhiling fer da ch0co n lydia fer the verii cute card n s0ckies... hahax... al0s wanna thx willie , wee kiat fer savin me ! hahax... thx han wei , k0r , n0rman , ivan , s0on leng , zha0 mu , l0uise fer makin this x'mas diff fer me ...
25-dec- MErry x'Mas !~!! t0dae gt tuition ! lays cumin back le !~ ... wanna telL her bout alL the bloody bangala thingy !!!.... later havin a small party at h0me ...
[[-glamourous queEn-]] -a small gesture 0f urs will make me gonna start all over again...

22 dec - went 0ut again t0dae... haahx... accompanied br0 n n0rman tuh cut hair ... hahax... b4 tt , there are funni thingz tt happened at the bus stop... hahax... :X ... den first time saw br0's hair s0 punk siia ... unbelievablE... hahax.... den the girl said $19 each ... den dunn0 is br0 listen wrongly or wat , he gave $100 !! omg !! i was sh0cked and n0rman was luffin real hard ... haha... he became the j0ke of da dae... haha... den we went queensway.... searchin fer sotong balls ... haha... finalli found it s0 happii... den saw am0s... ar... pai seh ... my mouth was like eatin until s0 messy... verii pai seh ...den sae hi le faster run away ... hahax... all0y didn't went out wif us ... bec0z of n0rman's Super sl0w hp... haha... sent a sms , next dae den recieve... hmm.... den br0 paid half fer a shirt tt i liked... i liked tt shirt damn l0tz... hahax... esp the words on it ... yea... hahax.... den we gt nth tuh d0 again ... hahax... den we went bukit timah again ... haha.... den n0rman sae wan tuh teach me play pool den we went up ... haha... muz check ic ar...! s0 went d0wn t0 macs and eat while waitin fer ivan t0 cum... hahax.... me n n0rman were verii br0ke ... s0 n0t much places tuh g0 ... den ivan came ... we were all crappin n takin ph0tos... haha esp n0rman ... peskii 0ne... den we went tuh 7 miles n makan ... hahax.... the ba ch0 mee sux ... n0rt nice de... hahax... den we were crappin sayin tt my m0m shld marry tuh ivan's dad n alL... ahhax... peskii... c0z we gt the same family backgrd... ar crapz... hahax... was luffin s0 much wif dem ... hahax... den went back n they decided tuh play cs... first time in hist dat they nid t0 wait... haha.. ya ... mayb bec0z of me ... hahax... den they play ... haha... i surf the internet... b0-ring siia ... den n0rman ask me play cs... ar... itz was tedi0us ... i can't contr0l th e m0use ... den ended up , n0rman used 2 hands n contr0l b0th his mouse n mine... hahax... den went up and play pool... n0rt 16 yet s0 muz g0 in frm the back d0or.... ar... den the d00r there wr0te , CHILDREN bel0w 16 are n0rt all0wed... children sia !! stupid l0rz... angrii ! * haha... den watched dem play pool as usual hahax... den afther tt , i g0t to play haha ! while n0rman is playin bubble puzzle... haha... the white ball went in twice sia !!! ar... why liddat ! s0rry ivan ! hahax... ya he shld be happi like wat he said ... haha... s0 l0usy at dat ! Den went back n played my bubble puzzle ... sianz... hahax... th0u we were still crappin... hahax... *details l0st* haha
i want tuh say a BIG thank y0u tuh mr pesky fer sms-in and kept me accompany... Hahahax.... den t0ok taxi hm as usual... ya ... it was late agin !~ 2 am sia !... m0m was awake ... hahax... den tmr hab tuh stay at h0me muggin .... s0bz....
23-dec- i m b0red !!! muggin time !~ physics . sianz... 2 m0re dayz tuh x'mas n 4 m0re days tuh physics examz... ar.... s0 fast !!!~ tmr meetin my peepz le ! s0 excited !~....
[[-glam0ur0us queen-]] -[ even t0wards the end , ii still unable t0 tell u the way i feel...]]

19-dec- woke up kinda earlii and went tuh eat breakies with family n n0rman's frenz... we ate r0ti-prata... s0 fulL... ya ... den set 0ff tuh kL... bryan , norman's fren , left his f0ne on the taxi ! omg... den m0m called back and the taxi agreed 0n cumin back if 20 bucks is given ! wat shit l0r... money-minded ... angrii ... den b0ught stuffz fer l0vers... ya... nth much tuh buy lehs... sianz one... all n0t suitable fer me ... onlii bought 2 shirtz n 1 pantz nia... haix... den boUght chicken little stuffz... s0 cute... i l0ve it l0tx... chicken little r0x ! yea... den it was rainin whilE we were waitin fer taxii... 0ur taxis were late ! ya ... den there was the guy ran acr0ss the r0ad and splashed the rain water 0n me and mr sing song ... den went back fer our big family dinner ... yummy ... hahax... den went back tuh h0tel r00m aftha buyin sum stuffz... c0ol... den wasn't tired at alL... was kinda high !~ S0 went out with br0ther , c0usinz and n0rman's frenz... it is teens' gatherin ... hahax... finallii ... we wanted tuh g0 tuh pub ... but we were all under 18 or i say 17 ! s0 we were like loiterin 0utisde den wen we decided tuh g0 in , the guard asked fer i/c ! hmmph... unluckii... haix... den we went tuh first world fer a walk... alm0st all sh0ps were cl0sed... hahax... den bryan was tokin bout ear piercin ... he said it was pain ... hahax... pain? n0 bahs...s0 proud bout my piercin n0w aftha they said it was pain! hahax... gurls braver ... den we went back tuh cafe fer a Drink... hahax... at first , i wasn't counted t0 drink , aftha that they n0rt enuff ppl s0 they counted me in... s0 peskii... den ii drank 0ne b0ttle 0f heineken all by myself ~! hahax... pr0ud** ... face wasn't red at alL... jay's face was verii red... hahax... we were like luffin n t0okin all the way... hahax... den went out t0 hab a bl0w... it was c0ld... hahax... n0rman gave me his jacket... it was huge... hahax... den we went tuh hab a walk to first world again... luffs... *details* den went back tuh h0tel r0om... it was late... i hab fun tonite ... hahax... c0ol... the frenz were like all verii funnii... juz can't stop luffin at times...
20-dec- tired... gg h0me le... hahAz...finalii... b4 tt , went tuh sh0p and bought my last shirt of the dae... hahax... den went back t0 hotel n packed... den went tuh hab lunch ... it was kinda nice... ya... den went tuh take the bus... hahax... cynthia sis n i was sittin in front 0f n0rman n gang... b0th of us were like... omg... kara0ke? they were singin like mad... hahax... hints were given tuh MR sing song... dunn0 h0w to spell his name... hahax... told him tt he can dun sing le but he insisted... hahax... den watched m0vies on the way... kinda b0red... times flies... aftha yong peng , jay found tt he l0st his wallet... oh my... he left on top of his bag n it was l0st... ya... den had a search... aftha tt , zhi wei f0und at the back whEre the driver is slpin... *suspicious* ... hahsx.. nvm ... den finally , parted n went h0mE... h0me swit h0me..**
[[ glam0ur0us queen-]]- mem0ries are meant tuh keep in the hartt.... juz dunn0 h0w tuh spelL it out...

[[-glam0urous qUeen-]] -[[ i'm falling fer euu ... but someh0w , euu didn't n0e... u r juz livin in regretz.... ]]

16 dec - went tuh w0rk ... ermz... ytd slept at 2 again !!! tired... hahax... den durin worktime , i folded the wh0le packet of roses... proud 0f myself... hahax... secretly de...hahax... den did l0tz of filin t0dae... ermz... tired... shall nort say much bout details ... den gt my full pay fer this week ! haha... kinda happii** ... den went tuh ah ma hse and eat ... den went tuh church fer confession ... saw l0tz of ppl ... and peepz frm church ... hahax... l0ng time nv see dem le but nv gt the chance t0 tok al0t coz rushin h0me t0 watch rainb0w connection . the endin was kinda disappointin ... ya ... den sheryl came my hse t0 overnite... martin?? he is sick but tmr we gona hab oUr cousinz date ! hahax... cuttin hair tgt tmr t0o ... c0ol... excited bout tmr ! hahax... 18 dec g0na g0 tuh gentin le ... ermz... going to miss nutcracker performance and kenji's autograph session ! grr... s0 sad... haix... ya ... x'mas cumin !!!~ great !
[[-glamourous quEen ]] - [[ i think i l0ve euu ... i'm falling f0r euu ... but ... ]]

`` [ - n0 use regrettin fer wat ch0ices i made... i gave it up s0 n0w... juz learn t0 forget ... ]
[[ i HATe myself !! ]]

`` Ah !!!! albert 0ut !!!! sad !! his actin improve l0tz l0r.... everii0ne th0t he will in ... ar shit ! he is 0ut !! s0 .... unfair !!! grr.... angrii like hell !!!
``-[[ glamourous queen]] ... [ l0ve dun cum twice... i missed it ... that's it ... ]]

13 dec - tue - t0dae was my day off... hahax... ya went 0ut with r n m ... ya... den went t0 national library ... my maths sux... ya... can't teach anithing much... s0 sorry ... hahax... ya... we were luffin all dae... luffin hard ** me esp... den after tt , went t0 eat mac... hahax... luffin abiit t0o over i guess... * missing * hahax... den went home... later gt tuition...
ii m workin all dae... except t0dae**... can't g0 out with peeps le... onlii at nites... bz bz... sundae gg genting ... ya... will get smth fer my peeps... naz , i rmb urs... hahax.. tmr gt tuh work as well. hope i get my pay !~...
``[[ glamour0us queen ]] - why d0 i felt this way? h0pes nv cum twice... i l0st ...

``[[ glamourous queen ]]







Munzii's rottin hand ~!!!

10 dec - woke up in da m0rnin 6 am plus... tired.tired. arh... nvm ...den went tuh sent0sa with mom n munzii tuh help out in the children's home activity at sent0sa... ya... s0 gd !... ahem... den first , saw all the children... erm... n0rt exactly children... m0st of dem are 14 -17 yrs old... ya... they kinda hab a sad family background... their parents hab all means of difficulties and tt the court hab t0 send the children t0 children h0me... sad rite? haix... den went tuh underwater world... hahax... saw jellyfishes !!! hahas... my species ! den saw all the fishes swimming around... headache !~ hee... saw sharks and dugong and nem0 !~ hahax... den went tuhz dolphin lag0on !!! pink dolphins are real cute !~ luv dem ... hahax... they are reallii s0 loving... ya... den we hab a ph0to session with the dolphin !! yeah ! hahax... g0t tuh touch them ! s0 cute !~ hee.... LovE dOlphins... den had our lunch... nortt tt nice l0r... n0 fulL at alL ! aftha lunCh , went tuh sky t0wer... t0ok the ride up... headache again!~ hahax... den the best part was tuh g0 images of s'pore !!!! cam n0rt realli hab batt den can't t0ok much ph0tos... the exhibits were c0ol ! fer phototakin i mean ... hahax... den went back fer the share session ... me n munzii got to get the christmas pressie frm the companii... hahax... cute stuffs esp the fish cushion... hahax... den there is one particular boii calLed nicholas... he is onlii 6 yrs old... he is s0 cute .... heard tt he came t0 children h0me 6 mths ag0... s0oo.... s0 sad... but he iis s0... cute ... why... aiya... den suppose t0 take the chairliftin... in the end nv gt the chance ! s0 disappointed !!!! den had a tiff with mommy , n0w still nort ok yet ... haix... den cried on da way h0me... haix... f0rget iit.......sad nvm ... den lata think gg out tuh eat with m0m n munzii again !!!! ya ... ok back frm dinner ... ya went t0 causeway for dinner with m0m n munzii... we ate SAKAE SUSHI ! omg ! hahax... ya... den me n munzii went to shop while mom g0 find her stuffs... i bought l0ts of chicken little stuffs !!! haha s0 happii ! ~ flyin 0ver da m0on... ya and bought rain's stuffs t0o... happii... ya... den tired n0w... munzi's hand is r0ttin !!! ah ! she is n0w at my hse... hand is rottin like a ... dyin l0g... pls look out fer her rottin hand's foto... Onlii can be seen in my bl0g ! YEa ! ok... [[ end ]]
``[[ glamourous queen ]]

``[[ - glamour0us quEen -]]

`` [[ i g0tta my 0wn style and i will walk my way... ]]

den headed t0 bugis... ermz... k0h wei came ... i b0ught a bag... dere is a crown on it ! haha... i l0ve it t0 bits !!!! hee ! c0ol... den found my cousin's pressie.... finally... tirin... and saw the cr0wn thingy ! I wan tuh buy !!! wait fer me ya... haha...
went t0 ah ma hse fer sheryl 's bdae dinner.... haha ... s0 high t0dae ! playin with ah g0ng ! ah g0ng was smilin s0 much t0dae !!! haha.... i l0ve tt feeling !.....
7 dec - HAppii bdae sheryl !! sick t0dae... supp0se t0 g0 out de... but i m sick... s0rry ya... think dey are angrii ... oops... but i m sick .... nvm... t0dae rest the wh0le dae . h0pe ii m fine tmr ... gg out with naz tmr ... illness all sh0o kkz...
`` [[ h0pe ii didn't gt t0 noe s0 much... ]]

I did my best
But I guess my best wasn't good enough
Cause here we are back where we were before
Seems nothing ever changes
We're back to being strangers
Wondering if we oughta stay
Or head on out the door
Just once
can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong?
Why we never last for very long What are we doing wrong?
Just once
can't we find a way to finally make it right?
Make the magic last for more than just one night
If we could just get to it
I know we could break through it
I gave my all
But I think my all may have been too much
'Cause Lord knows we're not getting anywhere
Seems we're always blowing whatever we've got going
And seems at times with all we've got
We haven't got a prayer
[[ juz 0nce , i wanna cry iit all 0ut !........... ]]

`` i m s0rry... all i can is that... s0rry t0 hurt you t0o... is all my fault...ii m just confused at da m0ment...

l0ve chicken little l0ts... hahax... s0 cute ! woody , dun u dare c0ok iit kkz... haahx... chicken little is s0 cute... w0oo.... hahax...
`` ii h0pe my mind wun think of euu ... i dun welc0me it anim0re...

[[ hartbr0ken... can anione save me ? ]]