Y Saturday, February 18, 2006Y
6:01 AM
18.02.06- things g0ne wr0ng fer me . i br0ught harm t0 0thers as welL . bud this time , i n0rt g0nna be weak anim0re . i g0na fight back and be the bad girl tt lies deep within ... if i dun d0 s0 , things n0rt g0nna end and my heart will be certified dead . i n0rt g0nna let all my happiness g0 d0wn tUh helL this time . i hab t0 d0 smth fer myself . i 've been living fer others . i m sick 0f it . this time , i g0nna turn everythin rite again . 1 week . we've g0ne 0ut of it . tt will be the strength fer me t0 fight on . so dun gib up on me at this lowest point of life ... l0okin back tuh the past , i nv been s0 tired eversince 2005 passed . this time , i m wear 0ut . t0tallii . itz n0t supp0se tuh be this way . i nv ever felt my hartt bleedin this way . this was the first . i finalli broke d0wn after h0ldin on . i f0rced myself n0rt t0 use the silly way t0 let my pain g0 elsewhere . bud h0w l0ng can i h0ld ? bud i realised tt's n0rt the way anim0re . ii wilL live my life . stop messin up my life ! i can turn verii nasty . VERY .
i m tired . bud f0r the sake 0f xxx , peeps tt care , i hab t0 walk 0n myself n let my sufferings end . this time , i swear ii will d0 so .
i n0rt g0nna let ani0ne take 0ver my life n turn it upside d0wn . if u r jeal0us 0f my happiness n0w , g0 search fer urs . c0z u can nv take away the happiness tt bel0ngs t0 me . it bel0ngs t0 EUNICE TAN . get it clear !~
i hab enuff and i n0rt g0nna let euu d0wn this time as well . 0r n0rt b0th 0f us will end up n0where all bec0z of me . s0 i wanna ask u n0rt t0 let me g0 at this m0ment 0f time . xxx if u ask me again , i will n0rt keep anithing frm u anym0re...
- i juz nid 0ne w0rd frm u tuh assure me tt i m d0ing the right thing.
back to todae .
went tuh kb0x with norman n m0m . tryin t0 avoid s0me songs but in the end , i still hab to face it . tears started r0llin d0wn and i realised wat i wan fer my own . i realised that the decision still lies with me . it's time t0 do smth . ii m glad tt i sang th0se s0ngs thru and i made my mind . it wasn't a waste crying .
tt was a call to remind me .th0u it was juz a hell0. i dun wan things t0 be like this anim0re . i n0e which direction to g0 next . th0se tt care , stay with me n prepare fer e battle .
``[[ keep breathin . hold on tuh me n nv let me g0 coz i m n0rt leaving . ]]