Y Wednesday, March 01, 2006Y
5:44 AM
1.03.06- ERROR ! n0w i hab t0 retype . first time in my life , my bl0g g0ne wr0ng . *tired* less0ns were as usual b0ring ... den went tuh ch0ir . my hartt wasn't with the ch0ir t0dae . n0t f0cus at all . tears hangin dere . l0okin at the cl0ck . wat m ii doing ?! den went tuh l0ok fer mun n all . *crap crap * den went hm ... *details missing * things left unsaid ...why m ii all0win ppl t0 affect me 0nce m0re ? ppl around me are givin me stress . bud pls ... i gt my 0wn rights t0 hab my own happiiness . if u reallii like tuh say s0 much , u either open ur bl0ody mouth n tell me straight 0r juz shut up n dun let me hear wat u say . u n0e wat u sae might affect things ? u r n0t up t0 it t0 ruin my life . s0 leave me al0ne . u may be rite . everythin may n0rt bel0ng to me . bud ii m b0rt greedii . i n0e wad ii wan . things tt dun bel0ng tuh me will leave me sumdae sumh0w . s0 u dun hab t0 worry . every0ne is waitin tuh c . bud excuse me . this is n0rt a game . n0rt a m0vie . dun mess up ppl's life . bec0z of u all , i break d0wn s0 easily even tuh the slightest thing n i hate it . c0z tt's n0rt me .
thanks mun fer waking me up . lucky u reminded me . i wun be s0 rash .... maybe i reallii shld learn tuh be independent and n0rt rely on him s0 much tt gave him extra burden ... i will learn s0 . all i nid is juz a smile . a smile t0 tell me everthing is fine . n0t a fake 0ne pls . after hearin tt , i n0e wat reallii is pain . my hartt hurtx... tears came fl0win bud i juz can't stop it . c0z i care . care s0 much tt i could feel the pain ... itz bleeding . bud i n0e ii will be fine . 0ne smile frm him n i will fine ...
s0rry ... i'm s0rry ... s0rry fer being s0 childish n i regretted thr0win temper bec0z of small things . th0se fears .... they are haunting me ... tt's why ii m actin this way ... i m n0rt readii t0 let g0 at all . maybe ii will nv be readii t0 let g0 ... c0z i n0e this r0ad is still l0ng . i dun wan t0 end here w/o gettin tuh a destination . h0pin this matter will make us str0nger and we hab faced 0ne obstacle in 0ur r0ad... tt will nv end ...
``[[ every tears i cried fer represented h0w much ii care fer euu ... ]] ii l0ve euu