.: g0odbyes really are f0rever;

Y Friday, December 28, 2007Y

2:41 AM

28.12.07- DAY 3
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOM! WHEE!~
Last nite at 12 am , I gave mom her pressie and a card.
She was so touched upon seeing the bdae card.
She cried. HAHAHA.
I'm glad that she likes the pressie!
Stayed at home today. Didnt feel like going out at all.
Slept till 4 pm. LOL.
wasnt in a good mood today anyway.
those lies appeared in my mind again.
I felt the pain and i really think im a BIG FOOL.
Maybe i know why i can still move on
** haven meet *** ( tt's wad i assume)
okay. im tired alrd. My head is spinning~

一开始你爱我最后你放弃我
还要用千言万语说得委屈你有多难过

MOMMY. i LOVE you !
stay pretty always and thanks for everything!
MUACKS.

Y Thursday, December 27, 2007Y

6:07 AM

MY OREO CHEESECAKE. :)

ME AND RACHEL :)

ME ! ( TAIWAN )

6:02 AM

做得到

試著讓身邊很吵鬧好好想念你的懷抱
某一秒我竟微笑體會你揚起的嘴角
悲傷的呼喚
也許在跟自己比較讓你哭過是我不好
太自責話都變少然而你還是最美好
要讓你知道做得到不管相愛總會有一些低潮
我愛你就應該對你越來越好
現在只想忽然把你抱得高高
看著你笑我也笑別自尋煩惱
做得到你說再苦也要跟我直到老
我說的每一個承諾會說到做到
感謝你堅強勇敢讓我很驕傲
你所想要的愛我能做得到
也許在跟自己比較讓你哭過是我不好
太自責話都變少然而你還是最美好
要讓你知道做得到不管相愛總會有一些低潮
我愛你就應該對你越來越好
現在只想忽然把你抱得高高
看著你笑我也笑別自尋煩惱
做得到你說再苦也要跟我直到老
我說的每一個承諾會說到做到
感謝你堅強勇敢讓我很驕傲
你所想要的愛我能做得到
原諒我內心交戰讓你好難過
我能給你的愛沒有做不到。。。

5:02 AM

27.12.07- DAY 2
mun left in the m0rning.
I am all al0ne for the whole aftern0on.
didnt want to leave my room at all.
daydreaming the whole day. :(
i came to realise that from now on ,
that number will never appear again in my phone.
that face will not appear in front of me anymore.
i admit that i really feel so lost.
but its ok. time will pass.
SEE. 2008 is COMING! :)
working today. finally saw MJ.
like 19392348 years lah! LOL.

I will be OK.

1:49 AM

26.12.07 - DAY 1
went out with RACHEL :)
we headed to wheelock place, wisma to do her exchanging of stuffs.
ate at food republic. chilled at starbucks.
my heart wasnt really with me. I was very bothered by some messages.
We left wisma for cine. Okays. i Saw him .
went in to say hi . The moment i turned around , i cried.
THanks rachel. Lucky u were there.
I really dislike heeren , paragon and hk cafe.
they bulilt up beautiful memories in these places. WHICH MEANS
those memories are haunting me !
next was paragon. Again , they went there tgt once.
ARGH . headed home. it was a super long journey home.
SAW the BOBO hp strap in my bag ! i wanted to throw it away !
met mun and the 2 hahas . we headed to holland v. :)
we went to eat NYDC. oreo cheesecake made me SICK.
Mun came over to my hse for a stayover.
THANKS SO MUCH.
had a heart to heart conversation with her.
I cried again . thinking how guilty i felt towards those who cared for me . esp MOM.
it takes time and everyone knows that I will take a super long time to forget
and to recover. I want to try harder . Make myself stand up again :)
THANKS MUNNNNN ! =) LOVE YAAAA.

Y Wednesday, December 26, 2007Y

10:41 PM

how much i want to forget you.
how much ur lies hurt.
how much those photos blinded me.

can i hate you.

9:03 AM

I just want to get that short journey h0me out of my mind.

Y Tuesday, December 25, 2007Y

5:45 AM

WHY AM I SO FARKING USELESS?

4:04 AM

Sorry Mr walter for not turning up last nite.
AND a big thank you for taking care of me in Taiwan.
yupps. if i can choose again , i dun wan to go taiwan.

im moving on now.

TREATING ME LIKE A FOOL ALL THESE WHILE.
UR RETRIBUTION IS COMING.

U ARE OUT OF MY LIFE. LIAR.

Y Sunday, December 23, 2007Y

9:45 AM

23.12.07 - I AM BACK FROM TAIWAN! :)
super tired. shall update my trip when im free.
maybe after xMas.
wheee. tmr is xmas eve.
time flies.
it is also telling me that its time to m0ve on!
LIAR. I HATE YOU.

Y Sunday, December 16, 2007Y

10:22 PM

http://youtube.com/watch?v=nBiWtXqz4e4&feature=related
super nice song!
cant upload. @_@

9:38 PM

Miss Elean0r. X) LOVE

MUNNNN. Going HIGH.

MY LOVES ! koh and mun

THANKS FOR UR XMAS PRESSIE. <3

RETARDED!

another RETARDED face

ME and MUN ! LOVES

8:49 PM

FINALLY MET UP WITH MUN, KOH AND MIN.
I LOVE U GUYS SO MUCH =)
THANKS FOR BEING THERE . <3
U GUYS NV FAIL TO MAKE ME LAUGH! HAHA.
with all the silly things we do tgt.

THANKS NING NING.
ALWAYS LISTENING TO ME.
BRINGIN ME OUT TO CHEER ME UP!
I WILL BE BACK SOOONNN. WAIT FOR ME! =)

THANKS JOANS JOANS, KAT KAT , SHERYL.
I WILL MISS U GUYS. =)

THANKS MJ.
knowing that ive cried for long
brought me out to PLAY. =)

THANKS WALTER.
DON WORRY. Ur bubble tea , i wont forget!

THANKS to many many!
for cheering me up.
caring when im sick .
making my day , makin sure i smile :)

thank y0u for keeping the promise.

BIG THANK YOU to MOM.
for bringing out to shop!
buying me so many things
and bring me to makan g0od food !

these few days were the most tiring day for me.
AHHHHH. super tired.
just look at my eyes , u will know lah !
shall update 0nce im back! :)

PARTY for christmas!

1st time that i do not feel as if im gg on a holiday.
tmr going tw.
not prepare yet. today is alrd monday.
nv pack bag. nv get the things i need.
hope nth will happen there. =(
i just hope it will be an enjoyable trip.

>>>> my heart is beating super fast! :(

8:40 PM

These Cakes are SUPER NICE. NING NING, Thanks for ur TREAT.

MY DRUG!

THEY NV FAIL TO MAKE MY DAY =)

WHEEEEE ~ LOVES LOVES.

8:18 PM

LOOK AT SHERYL. Her EXTREME makeover.

MY NING NING AND YONG Y0NG.

LOOK AT THIS AUNTY.

AND ... her CUTE slippers!

ALL WHITE~

ME AND SEAH NING NING. SHE DOTES ME SO MUCH!

HAHA. yong y0ng

me AND BITCHHHHHH. ( her fav word )

ME AND SHERYL! =)

Y Tuesday, December 11, 2007Y

10:47 AM

YUPPPS.
I AM HOLDING BACK MY TEARS.
damn it. i looked like a complete fool.
knowing the truth at a later point of time
meant that someone lied to me again!
WTF.
I HATE IT. ESP LIES.

I dun feel like going anymore.
it is not gonna be fun. im no longer feeling excited.
AND i dun wan to be there AT ALL.
seeing you makes me think of the lies and her!

hope this night pass fast.
dying to see them tmr.
i need to let it all out!

looking forward to FRIDAY too !

8:56 AM

OOPS. She is EATING lahhh. Shld not disturb! x)

SHERYL. her ice blended chocolate :)

PASTA!

LOOK AT PRETTY NING NING =)

BLURRRRR.

LOOK AT HER! STARE AT HER! LOL

BUSY PEOPLE.

ME AND SHERYL TOES.

ME N NING NING =)

AHHHH. COOL RUBBISH BIN !

SEXAYYY BACKS. =)

ME N TOES AGAIN!

ME AND DAPH DAPH! =D

8:28 AM

11NOV- LAST DAY OF SCHOOL.
EG2 paper is gonna flunk. BUT I hope i wont.
Mind was flying somewhere else.
I wasnt focusing AT ALL.
heart was in pain. DOING EG2 made it worst.
Me and Rachel went out first.
First time i did in 1/2 hr time. Too fast lahh.
Cabbed down to town with Daph,sheryl,rachel and sheryl. :)

Heeren first! bad memories. :/
din manage to get anything.
Daph is getting 2 berms at FleshImp.
We went far east. Joking on our way there. LOL. :D
Bought a dress. Whee. So HAPPY.
walked around. Sheryl got her snoopy dress and her pumps.
POOR NING NING. didnt manage to get anithing.
BUT our NING NING is so beautiful in elegant dresses!

SO JEALOUS CAN.
den jun jie came. we headed to wisma.
Daph bought a shirt and tie at topman~
LOL.Po0r ning ning didnt get anithing again.
Jewel and friend came. Fetched daph n jun jie away. LOL
We went to taka. Tried so many dresses today!
and Sheryl got another dress which is super NICE. :)
Legs were tired out. Went coffee bean to chill ...
went to meet bi. Ate pasta mania and bought my new fren.
gotta think a new name for him :)

this is the last time im gonna cry.

promises are meant to be broken once they are made.

im just a fool.
cos i dun wanna believe in that. :)

i saw the distance.

whenever i look into ur eyes,
i see her.

I JUST WANT TO BE HAPPY!

Y Monday, December 10, 2007Y

6:52 AM

I LOVE COKE LIGHT. :)

SHERYL. SHE IS FIERCE. but cute. P.S she is studying

LOOK. I DID STUDY OKAYYYY.

JOAN JOAN. she is stressed.

its RAINING EHHH. HOW TO WASH THE FLOOR? -.-

6:41 AM

10 nov- a BIG thank you to Rachel SEAH
for coming to my rescue for eng mech early in the m0rning!
LOL. thou i might disappoint you by failing.
but i will try harder for final year exams.
I am tricked by the freaking Qn lahhh!
feeling so PC by that ~ Grrrr. -.-
Went ajisen to eat again :/ LOL
i think im getting sick of that.
My bunch of girls nv fail to make me LAUGH.
HAHA. :) they make me HIGH.
Sheryl came to my hse, watched tv , took my stuffs
headed to mac to study. Was in the mood of studying!
Im super proud of myself.
But we again, will die without joking.
Had a great time studying and stuffing myself with MAC. -.-
Met mom and went home. :)
after bl0gging , gonna go back to study! ;)
TMR IS THE LAST PAPER.
GOODBYE TO SCH.
BIG WELCOME TO HOLIDAYS N TAIWAN. :)

i n0 longer cherish...

Y Sunday, December 09, 2007Y

10:45 AM

My yummy dinner

Pretty but blur eleanor~ OOPS.

SEE ! Im studying ah ~

Me and eleanor~ LOVES

ARGH. hate studying CAN!

10:39 AM

9n0v- doing intensive study now! i hate engineering mechanics.
tmr is my common test
and ive got no idea on chapter 4. :/
GOD. please give me a pass!
did some studying with miss eleanor ytd. AT LEAST. i did study.
im feeling so tired.

yuppp. i guessed my woman's instinct is RIGHT again.
how shit ~
okay. slowly... one step at a time.
i CAN do it.

MJ is back. YAY. :)

He says he's so in love.
He's finally got it right.
I wonder if he knows
He's all I think about at night!
She better hold him tight,
Give him all her love,
Look in those beautiful eyes,
And know she's lucky.

Y Thursday, December 06, 2007Y

8:12 AM

CHILLI CRAB. all by myself. :)
at least it made me feel lil better.

3:04 AM

g0t a few photos to upload later. :)

ONE THING i wanna say

i finished up a wh0le chilli crab by myself.

How impressive behhh. LOL.

today didnt go to school.

went out to take cab.

just before i got any cab,

IAC teacher called.

Class was cancelled.

s0 i went h0me.

this week hab been a TORTURE.

lonliness is overcoming me.

the fear of time passing is making me faint.

i'm missing you alrd.

原来我不坚强

today is 6th DEC.

time is gg freaking fast.

i gotta find smth to do and distract my attenti0n.

the promise?

i crossed my finger. waiting for the day to pass. ASAP.

你觉得痛苦

我倒不愿意为爱受苦

只有这样我才做到对你的背叛宽恕

我最喜欢挑战孤独

我也爱放下包袱

没有谁我也不舍得哭

我没有空在乎

罗志祥 - 最后的风度

im in l0ve with this s0ng.

Y Wednesday, December 05, 2007Y

12:18 AM

been so pc nowadays.
things are nv right for me.
What the hell lahhh! *angry*

feeling so tired in school.
sleeping during lessons.
commom tests are coming.
gonna flunk for real. SHIT.

Today is 5th december.
how i wish time will stop here.
getting more and more insecure.
AND im losing hope each day.
as the day is coming nearer,
i just wanna escape.
hopes are dying. tears are dropping.

even if i beg you not to.
will you?
thou i know the answer
but i just hope the next time i ask ,
it will be a different one.

i just want to be a happy girl.
i want to see u before the day comes.

Y Tuesday, December 04, 2007Y

11:53 PM